I don't know if this is the right place to go to for what has been bothering me lately, but i will give it a try.
For the past couple weeks i have been questioning some things. Mainly what i want and don't want in my life.
School can be complicating and definetly stressful. It is not easy to keep up with everything, but I am keeping up pretty well.
But it is not easy.
Every Thursday I go out with my best friend and we have a blast!
I cannot remember the last time I have had so much fun just going out and playing some pool.
When I go out I have so much fun, but during these nights out I run into people who apparently pretend to be my friend etc.
Then, behind my back, go and tell others that I lie, cheat, am a bad person, I am just drama, I am not worth being friends with. The list goes on and on. It can be really hurtful, but I do my best not to let it get to me because I know these people have nothing better to do then talk badly about me. Or maybe they are jealous of things I have and they don't.
I enjoy going out with friends and having a good time, but my best friend has been depressed lately as well.
It is like she is a different person and it is all because of a boy. A guy that is truly not worth her time.
I do my best to comfort her and tell her how I feel about her situation and give her the best advice.
She loves the advice I give her, but it seems that she keeps falling half way up the stairs.
I catch her when she falls but I don't think any guy is worth being depressed over and not act your age in a sense.
She is only 20 years old, a year younger then me, and she is acting like she is in her 30's or 40's.
It can be aggravating and annoying sometimes.
Then when we are out she asks me why I am with my boyfriend.
I never have to really think about why. My response is always, "because i love him."
She always say,"That's it?"
Well, what else is there?
All the little details such as he makes me laugh etc. is included in the word love.
She is not a fan of my response and I don't think she ever will be.
Now, ever since she has been giving me a hard time about my boyfriend she has got me thinking of my life.
About what I want out of life. Sometimes I just think I am getting nowhere.
I go to school 4 days a week and take 4 classes and I study very hard.
But what am I going to with it? I have such a long time until I graduate.
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year and I am happy being with him.
I don't question our relationship in any way.
Just wondering what relationships are all about.
Why do people get in a relationship with one another and then it ends?
Or why do they stay together?
In one of my favorite quotes
"I don't want to kiss a lot of frogs to find my prince."
Why do people kiss a lot of frogs?
What is the point?
Especially when the relationship only lasts for 3 months or less.
Some people say that it is because you learn something from them, they make you the person you are today...ya I can see how thats true 100%.
I believe that people do not have free will and that a person cannot help who they love and/or fall in love with.
I cannot help but love my boyfriend for who he is and what he does for me not only physically but emotionally.
I guess I just do not understand why God puts certain people together.
My boyfriend and I are total opposites.
He likes relaxing nights in and I love exciting/adventurous nights out.
He has changed my life in many ways, good ways.
So why is it him? I am very glad it is him of course. I love him with all my heart.
And I know he loves me more then anything.
I guess all this is about me and my problems with why certain people are with other certain people.
I have a guess that maybe it is because we don't have free will, which means we don't have a choice on who we fall in love with.
And maybe thats the answer to my entire post, but I would like some other opinions or what you think about love, and maybe what the point of love is.
I love being in love with my boyfriend, but why is love so strong?
Someone once told me that:
"Love is stronger then gravity. Some would say the strongest force on earth."
I believe that quote is one of the most honest quotes I have ever heard.
So I thought I'd share it with you.
Well...if you have anything to say then I would love to hear it.
-Chanelle