Hello, After, coming in here I have found out that even Babylon was his plan for me. I had to go through the sin and the failure to overcome. Trying on my own power and never having victory. Also, I lacked trust in him. I failed him really bad right before coming in here. I had a sin in my life that I thought was impossible for him to forgive me for. But, I had another sin that was way worse then the one I thought he could not forgive me for. How could I ever trust him and not see his purpose and plan for me. How, most of all could I ever overcome my trying to do it myself when I did not see him as all loving. Through, that one sin I hated the most in my life, he made me wish I was dead to get away from my memories and yet he changed it to my hate of Hell.
This brought me into Rays website. I was so thirsty for GOD'S water that I read Rays articles for two days. I really did not sleep too much. Then, it all began to hit me. My Lord Loves Me he loves the Whole World. He is the Saviour of the World. He will have his way and I have nothing to offer. I was let out of the Hell of my mind. I worshiped him like I have never in my life. I just keep my focus on this. The devil has tried to steal it away. But, God is teaching me to know the difference between Him and the devil. He has used his word just as he said, to help me know whose voice it is. God helps me to overcome those thoughts. I am just learning this. This is the stage I am at. I am learning to overcome.
God has put into my mind Matthew Chapter 4 as an example to equip me of the wiles of the devil. I want to learn the difference between my Fathers voice and my own or the devils. If it is my own God presents it to me as sin. If, it is the devil it creates fear . The devil was always coming to Jesus to try and get him to sin. But, Jesus knew his fathers will. He knew him inside and out. That is a hard place to get. You have to have the Fathers Spirit for that. The devil h as spent years with us showing us things of the world. Wanting,us not to forgive others. Wanting, greed , fame, fortune what ever. We are our own worst enemy. It dies because when the Father consumes it with his fire we will be perfected. It is a process. Now, I find it helps me to remember, I am not perfect and my Father is. Its not about me. I have nothing to give. But, My God is able to deliver me when and how he wants. Jesus knew his Father.
Judy, that beast has to die. Killing that beast is what God does to us. It is a process and not easy. It likes to claim its throne. We have to overcome ourself. That Beast is a big thing. But, our God is Greater.
Even, after you know that God is the Savior of the World the devil likes to try and make you fall. He likes you to think God can't change you. Thats, how God teaches us trust in him. He brings us to where we cannot trust ourself for anything. We will be able to know if the beast is talking or if the spirit is of the devil. It is a life time of overcoming. The devil was after Jesus at every turn in Matt. Chapter 4 But, because Jesus knew the difference between his Fathers voice and the devil he was able to over come. So, we have to overcome till the end like Jesus. The great thing to remember it is not our ability but the Fathers. We will have victory if it is the Fathers will. That, is why we should get one on one with God. So, we can learn to know which voice is talking to us. The Beast , the devil . Something other then the Spirit of God.
I have been thinking alot about Matt. Chapter 4 alot. Also, remember while the disciplies slept God turned to his Father in prayer. This helped him to overcome. You have to spend time alone with him. In one post in here we have to put on the full armour. George, pointed that out to me. If, one part is missing we will be found sleeping. That armour is all one, and without one part we might be caught sleeping.
I just wanted to let you know , that now I see my entire life as all a process just like Ray talks of. I see his patience, longsuffering and that Good News Gospel of Love, which has won me over. His Love set me free. It will be same for all humanity when he presents it to them. I have no idea what I will do. Will, I overcome till the end. Will he choose me. No, idea, but I do believe he is able to accomplish all his will. He is the Saviour of the World.
Now, I know what they mean pray without ceasing cause it really all depends on him. Best prayer we could ever pray. Lord, keep me no matter what you have to do. I said, that many years ago to God. I told my last pastor that several years ago. He said, "Well that was a bold stament.Now, I know that the Lord had me to say that. He has done some pretty powerful things in my life and has chastened me real good before coming in here. Well, it was each time as severe as it should have been. He corrects in the way that changes us. He will be faithful to continue to do it. I just pray in fear and trembling. Cause that Beast loves to arise. When we learn what the Spirit of God consist of. We will know what the Spirit is and Gods Spirit will guide us . God is creating us in his Image. It is all one process. Hard but not impossible for our God who wills ALL MEN BE SAVED. I know , the Lord has opened my eyes to that Chapter 4 in Matt. I had read it many years. But, never thought about it with open eyes and ears. That, is a powerful Chapter indeed.
In His Love,
Marlene