Eileen, That was the verse that haunted me right before coming in here. I thought, I was done for. I thought, God had no alternative but to send me to Hell. I had fallen so badly. I am so ashamed of myself still. But, God choose to use that fall for the good of me. First, I repented of that sin . I had several weeks of sorrow. Then, he had me at the end of my rope. Like Ray, I don't have to tell you what that sin was it is all the same thing, lust of eye, etc.
Now, all I can say is God used this sin for my good. Yes, I repented. But, I am new to this. I never went to a church that really taught the Bible alot. I never really got real familar with the scriptures. OT seems pretty foreign to me. But, you acknowledge your sin, you dont like it. I mean we did not get this way over night. First, of all we all had to fall away in order to come to the truth. Read Ray's paper on repentance. I believe that is where we are at.
God used that scripture to show me I did not know him. Well, then he brought me to the place where I realized I had not known the truth. The truth is a part of how God will bring us to righteousness. I also, know that the adversary is ready to steal the truth from us. All, kinds of things get throwed at our Spirit after we learn the truth. Habits are hard to break. Now, you become where you see all kinds of sin in you. Where, before knowing the truth you were blind to yourself. It just kind of took you over.
Now, we have the power of God in us, and to me I just pray keep me Lord. I ask him to show me my sin. Its not easy seeing we are that Beast. But, let me tell you knowing you receive judgement is better then believin you are going to hell. I believe God did me this way so I would never taken his truths and his Love in vain. I was so ready to come out of Babylon. God won me over with his Love. I didn't know God or I would have put him first over everyone else.
Kat said alot there when she told you we have to learn from someone. You know it could be that it is the adversary making you feel the way you do. Since, I first joined here the adversary was making me think all kinds of things. But, we have to learn to discern who it is coming from. God, Us, or the adversary.
Thats, not easy. I went through two weeks of Hell trying to figure out who was giving me these thoughts. Well, God showed me it was the adversary. First, I repented cause I thought it was just me. Then the next time I was down on my knees telling God to take the adversary from me. Well, God restored my Joy.
Sorry, for making this so long. I just hope I can help anyone who is new with this. Eileen, I feel your pain. We have all kinds of things thrown at our Spirit after knowing the truth. I just want to tell you I love you as a Sister. Also, that God can keep you grounded. He is stronger then us or our adversary.
Just stay close to God in prayer. We have wonderful people in here who love us. I never had anything like this while in church. I wasl ill for almost two years and gone out of church. Only one man and woman ever showed up. Here we can leave a call out for prayer or help anytime of day and God sends some help our way. I just, love you all so much. Your pain breaks my heart Eileen or for any of you. We are family and going through this together.
In His Love,
Marlene