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=> Testimonies / Prayer Requests / Fellowship => Topic started by: EKnight on March 10, 2010, 09:09:33 PM
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Just a simple prayer to our Lord will suffice. For my husband who is having an angiogram (and maybe stents) tomorrow. And maybe for my daughter too who needs to ace a calculus test she is taking tonight so that she has a chance to get into the college of her choice. She wants to major in math/actuarial science.
Thank you friends,
Eileen
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my prayers for you and your family,
lauriellen ;D
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Will do!
And it sounds like your daughter will ace it anyway! A math major!!???
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my pleasure ;)
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Said and done.
Roy
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Well unfortunately for me, my husband never made it to his appointment this morning. Shortly after we went to bed he had a massive heart attack and died.
Please pray for me and my children. I am not sure how I will ever go on without my loving and adoring husband. :'( :'( :'( :'(
Eileen
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OH Eileen! OMG!! I am so so sorry...There are no words to say..I will be praying for you....I am sending my love to you and the children....Praying that you will feel God's love around you, Eileen...and please feel our love, too.... :'(
Kathy :'( :-*
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Eileen.. Oh my.. I am so sad to hear this..
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We are here for you.. Count on this, please.
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I am speechless, but prying for you and your children. May God comfort and sustain you all, in Jesus' name, amen
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Eileen,
Our heartfelt condolences to you and your children. We will keep you in our prayers.
Rene' & Dennis
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Eileen,
I know what you're going through and you's are in my prayers.
Blessings and grace to you and yours
Nelson
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Eileen, I am so sorry for your lose. I remember your family at the conference... you just never know. I will pray that God will give you strength and courage to endure this sad time.
mercy, peace and love
Kat
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Eileen,
I am so so sorry to hear about your lose Eileen. I can't imagine how diffulcult this time is for you and family. You and your family are in my prayers.
Sandyk
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Eileen, I am so sad for you. I really don't know what to say. I will pray for you and your family.
In His Love,
Marlene
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Grace, love and peace to you and your family. I will be praying for you.
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Eileen,
I am so sorry to hear about your husband. I just don't have words for times like these......
You are in my prayers Eileen.
Antaiwan
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Eileen,
I'm praying that God strengthens you and you're family. I can't imagine how hard this is for you. We love you Eileen.
Charles
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I am not sure how I will ever go on without my loving and adoring husband
I am s-o sorry to hear this Eileen. I am so sure too, that you will not stop loving and adoring your husband.
May God comfort, strenghten and hold you through this most distressing time.
Deborah
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Oh Eileen, I am just so, so sorry. :'( :'(
We will be praying for all of you. Such a valley you are going through right now.
May God hold you tightly and may you feel our love for you too.
love, Lin
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oh eileen, i am shocked by your news! oh Dear God please comfort eileen and her children as they endure this most horrible loss. only You can bring true comfort and peace to this family. i ask for Your mercy and lovingkindness to engulf eileen and the entire family. Father God, i give thanks that You brought eileen and her dear husband to mobile so that he could hear the Truths that ray expounded on. oh Father i am so, so sad for our sweet sister. thank you Father God for the opportunity to meet this wonderful man.
eileen, stand firm in your faith. Father God knew you would need His Truths before this tragic event.
claudia
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Eileen, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss of your dear husband. My prayers are added. May God comfort you and your family in this sorrowful time. We love you Eileen.
YSIC,
Vangie
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I can't express enough the gratitude I feel from all of your sincere and heartfelt words. You all truly exemplify the love of Christ.
I finally got a few hours sleep last night. One of many lonely nights without Mark.
I printed out Ray's paper on death and I am leaving it laying around for all those who are going to converge upon my house this weekend to read. I also printed out "woundedness" in the inspirational section of this forum. These two writings pretty much encompass my beliefs. Maybe a few will read it and understand where Mark and I stood regarding our loving and merciful God.
Know that I am lonely as Mark was my best friend and there is no human left on this earth who will be able to comfort me in the way that Mark could have. I am grateful knowing that he cannot see us suffering because it is the last thing he would have ever wanted. Family came first to him while he was here. However, I already feel the warmth of Christ surrounding us and bringing a somewhat broken family together.
My heart aches but may the grace of God heal my broken heart.
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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Amen, my sweet sister!
God will wrap His arms of love around your whole family and heal you! That's what your dear Mark would want! I am thinking about you and praying for each one of you.
Love you,
Kathy :-*
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My dear sister Eileen. :'(
I am so sorry to hear of your husbands death and would like you to know that my prayers are with you and your family in your hour of need.
May our Loving and all so kind Father of Light shine His abundant Love upon you as the healing process begins.
Your brother in Christ,
Mark
PSALM 46:1-2 1 God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, . . .
PROVERBS 3:5 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
ISAIAH 41:10
10 Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'
JOHN 14:27
27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
2 CORINTHIANS 1:3-4 3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,
4 who comforts us in all our tribulation, . . .
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Hi Eileen
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.
Dave
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I am encouraged by your post Eileen. Our continued prayers for you and your children's healing, peace and comfort. May God be with you. Roy
I can't express enough the gratitude I feel from all of your sincere and heartfelt words. You all truly exemplify the love of Christ.
I finally got a few hours sleep last night. One of many lonely nights without Mark.
I printed out Ray's paper on death and I am leaving it laying around for all those who are going to converge upon my house this weekend to read. I also printed out "woundedness" in the inspirational section of this forum. These two writings pretty much encompass my beliefs. Maybe a few will read it and understand where Mark and I stood regarding our loving and merciful God.
Know that I am lonely as Mark was my best friend and there is no human left on this earth who will be able to comfort me in the way that Mark could have. I am grateful knowing that he cannot see us suffering because it is the last thing he would have ever wanted. Family came first to him while he was here. However, I already feel the warmth of Christ surrounding us and bringing a somewhat broken family together.
My heart aches but may the grace of God heal my broken heart.
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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Dear Eileen,
My deepest sympathy to you and your family at this sad time.
I pray you find comfort in the promise of the resurrection, and that our loving Father sustains you in the days ahead.
Cindy
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I'm sorry for your loss Eileen. My wife & I have been married for 52 years and often ponder what it would be like for one of us to pass. I don't want her to suffer by my passing so I hope that I am the survivor - for her sake. I pray God comfort you.
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Hi Eileen,
It is wonderful to see the results of Ray's teachings being manifested in your life, as you share the printed article on death. I appreciate seeing God's rapid love and comfort for you and of you being able to share comforting words, thoughts, and memories to your love ones during this time. My prayers are for your continued comfort.
Skip
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Eileen,
May the Lord bring peace to you and your family during these trying times and strengthen your spirit.
Job 1:20 Job stood up and tore his robe in grief. Then he shaved his head and fell to the ground to worship. 21 He said,
“I came naked from my mother’s womb,
and I will be naked when I leave.
The Lord gave me what I had,
and the Lord has taken it away.
Praise the name of the Lord!”
22 In all of this, Job did not sin by blaming God.
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Eileen....So very sorry for your loss and am praying for you and your family
Ellie
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Eileen, just a few minutes prior to coming here I was thinking about you and where you were lately. This news is so hard to take in, I am stunned. I am also crying for you and your children. With all my heart I pray and wish you the most intimate awareness of God. How your heart must be breaking every day. To lose a husband who you obviously cherished is almost too much. God be with you Eileen. All my love, Judy
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To those of you who have posted since my last words of gratefulness, thank you from the bottom of my broken heart.
As I said to Claudia, I wish that my friends here could physically be with me now. No one here understands that Mark and I reveled in the knowledge that death is sleep. We both take great comfort in that. But I do wish he could hear my thoughts these days.
The Lord was gracious enough to me these preceding weeks in that He gave me inklings as to what was to come. No one can ever be completely prepared for something like this but God prepared me enough that I was compelled to express my deepest loving thoughts to Mark lately. For some reason I read and re-read that Woundedness writing in the inspirational section here and I made Mark read it too. I AM WOUNDED but wounded for Christ and I take great comfort in that.
Thank you again.
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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Eileen, I'm sorry to hear this news. God be with you all, as I know He is.
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My Computer froze up while in the middle of responding so please forgive
any confusion to completing it.
Oh...Eileen I'm so very sorry!
I'm so shocked to learn this and so frustrated we're so far away from each other.
I loath the fact that I feel so useless to do or say anything to add to the warm and compassionate responses that everyone has sent your way.
I'm so grateful I was privilege to meet your Dear Mark at the Conference.
The thing I sensed most about him was his kindness & his bond with you and your daughter! What Paramount grace that God blessed you with, to lead you to share your deep feelings of love for Mark.
I'm weeping with you,
Brenda
:'( :'( :'(
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Last night I was talking to my son Jack while weeping and I said that my future was in the casket at the funeral home. He said "Mom, your future is not gone, your future has changed".
I have to say that the hardest part of all this is living without my life partner and I don't even know where to begin. I feel so faithless because I am so distraught.
Please continue to pray for me because from my perspective, my future looks overwhelmingly bleak. :'( :'(
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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I definitely will continue to pray for you.
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So sorry for your loss. Praying for you & your family.
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Eileen,
Jack is right your future is not in the casket at the funeral home. And your future is not changed....it is however different with respect to how you imagined it. Your future dear Sister is "Sure"!!!
Feeling distraught by losing Mark does in no way make you faithless. You both know that we will all be one, perfectly joined and reunited in our Messiah one Day. But that hope doesn't make your missing him NOW void. You have a safe place here to be real with us.
This I do know....Prayers and Love surrounds you from all over the planet from your BT family !!
Gentle Hugs,
Brenda
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Eileen,
I'm sorry about your Husband. My Apologies for not checking this Thread, prior to today. It all happens so unexpectantly. I pray that God's Spirit will provide the Cause for you to endure this tragedy and the emotional pain that accompanies this. May the peace of God that excels all thought, guard your heart and Mind in Jesus Christ, Our Lord.
My Sincere Condolences, Samson.
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Hello Eileen
I am not a stranger to widowhood. I lost my first husband when I was 24years old after 7 years not the decades you were with your Mark. I do not know that being widowed so young with so few years of marriage behind us was worse than being widowed with so much history that you have in your memories to look back on and cherish. I do know this - a part of me died when I lost my first husband. That part is true so I do empathise with the feeling that a part of you is with your Mark in his death. It is not unusual to feel the way you are feeling Eileen.
The acceptance part of the experience only comes later after the grief is so worn out our senses that there seemes to be nothing left of us to cry with and no more strenght to fight against the pain.
I feel your pain dear Eileen. God does too and He has the solution and the joy you will know as He draws you through this ordeal.
You will see Mark again in a better life.
Arc
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Arc,
I can barely see my computer screen through my tears. Your words are so spot on. I had just explained to my kids last night that when their Dad and I got married we truly did become one flesh and now that huge part of my soul has died and unfortunately he was the better part of my being.
Remarkably (by the grace of God) I am not angry at God for taking Mark from me so soon. For the past few weeks I was fortunate that God gave me hints if you will, and thoughts about the prospect of losing Mark and I rehearsed it in my mind as if it happened. So I was not completely shocked when it actually did. But regardless, the pain feels almost greater than I can bare at times but I know God's reasons are always purposeful.
Romans 8:18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
Romans 8:17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
Romans 5:3 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
2 Corinthians 1:5 For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.
2 Corinthians 1:16 If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer.
Philippians 3:12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
15 All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16 Only let us live up to what we have already attained.
17 Join with others in following my example, brothers, and take note of those who live according to the pattern we gave you. 18For, as I have often told you before and now say again even with tears, many live as enemies of the cross of Christ. 19Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things. 20But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.
I am not adept at reading the bible but these passages seem appropriate so if they are speaking of something that is not pertinent to pain and suffering for the love of Christ, feel free to correct me.
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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Hi Eileen,
I have been thinking of you often in this exceedingly difficult time you are going through and my hearts aches thinking of the great sadness you are feeling. Of course you feel a great grief for the lose of someone so dear to you. Christ also showed grief while on earth.
John 11:34 And He said, "Where have you laid him?"
They said to Him, "Lord, come and see."
v. 35 Jesus wept.
v. 36 Then the Jews said, "See how He loved him!"
Heb 4:15 For we have not a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.
The verses you provide show the direction that you are being lead. I know that you were probably drawn to those Scriptures because they referred to "suffering," but there is much more, I want to point out those things too.
Romans 8:17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ...
v. 18 ...with the glory that will be revealed in us.
2 Corinthians 1:5 ...through Christ our comfort overflows.
Philippians 3:14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
v. 20 But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.
Yes you must "press on," but not by your own strength, but by the "comforter" that is in you.
Joh 14:16 ...He shall give you another Comforter, so that He may be with you forever,
v. 17 ...But you know Him, for He dwells with you and shall be in you.
v. 18 I will not leave you orphans. I will come to you.
v. 26 But the Comforter, the Holy Spirit whom the Father will send in My name, He shall teach you all things and bring all things to your remembrance, whatever I have said to you.
He still has things to "teach" you Eileen, do not fear you can lean on Him, because He is with you and will take care of you.
1Peter 5:6 Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time,
v. 7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.
v. 10 But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.
v. 11 To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.
mercy, peace and love
Kat
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I know what it is like when the tears are not tear drops, but a nonstop brimming over flow of tears that make it feel like you are looking from under water. I don’t quite know how to describe it. If feels like the tears are one long gushing out of water. Like a tap that is opened and the water runs through without pause. If feels like reality is behind a barrier of water that is your tears keeping you separate, alone, at the back of a stinging hot wall of tears. People are on the other side. You can hear them but everything is a blur and they do not seem to see or know what it is like for you. Unless they can just break through and hug you and feel what you are feeling, then if feels a bit better but just briefly. Even they cannot bear the pain enough to stay long with you as you suffer. Eventually they just have to stand back, look and say nothing.
They have the prayers of truth as they turn to the only One who really Knows what you are going through. Theirs are the Prayers of your family, speaking to Our Lord who is not immune to your feelings. Theirs are the prayers who bring forward those feelings that are undeniable, when you feel suddenly a powerful presence of calm, of love and of thick comfort surrounding your weary soul. Perhaps then someone is holding your pain for you for that moment just to help you regain some strength, some poise and some hope again. These are the prayers of those who say nothing but feel everything. They are far more capable of speaking to Our Lord from their own hearts that have no words but are carried in deep feelings of need for Our Lord.
It happens. I know it does. It is the blanket of prayers that are so important in our times of deep despair and darkness. It from the prayers of the righteous that avail much towards the Mercy that we receive from our Lord. Who of us wants to carry pain. Who wants to feel the burden of someone else. Non of us do but some of us are called to be that Simon of Cyrene pulled out from the crowd. It is not only one person but many that can touch us with healing and help. God has many emissaries of His Spirit available to help and often they do without knowing. It is God’s way to work in secret, in discretion and in intimate closeness to our needs as our souls cry in the sobbing throbbing pain of hurt.
I know it. I have experienced the gift of mercy pre-empted through prayers of the righteous. I know it. If there is someone who is faithful when I fail, if there is someone who is strong when I am weak, if there is someone praying when my mind is numb with pain, if there is someone there when I am alone, if there is someone hoping when my hope is gone, if there is someone, just one someone, then the gap in me, the hole in my heart and soul can be filled with just that one someone’s prayers. That one someone is Christ in all the hearts and souls remembering Him in the wake of your grief, because of your pain and because we only know One Someone who can help, heal, understand and console all the pain and still all the fears. That Someone is Christ.
It is only a few days now, and there will be more change to come that may surprise you, at how you are coping beyond your wildest expectations. One small step at a time. You are compassed about with the heartfelt prayers of the faithful for you and your children.
You have been daily in my feelings and thoughts.
Love to you and your children Eileen :'(
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Hi Eileen,
I must say that I am in no wise as gifted as Arc and others in regards to giving words of comfort in trying times, but I wanted to say you have encouraged me. I know it's extremely hard for you right now, but God has not allowed Satan to steal your faith.
I am not adept at reading the bible but these passages seem appropriate so if they are speaking of something that is not pertinent to pain and suffering for the love of Christ, feel free to correct me.
In my opinion these scriptures are very appropriate. You encourage me through your trial because I know we must suffer much tribulation to enter the Kingdom of God. God is showing me through your trial that He is able to strengthen us and create fruits of the spirit no matter how hard the trial may seem. The fact that you have audacity to post scriptures and ask if they are appropriate speaks volumes about your faith. God is using you Eileen whether you're aware of it or not. He always gets glory out of any situation. Darkness never consumes Light, but Light can always penetrate and consume the darkness.
"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." Gen. 50:20
I'm still praying...
Charles
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Once again, thank you all for your encouraging and heartfelt words. I am quite surprised myself how strongly I feel blessed in spite of all that has happened. I keep telling people, "I trust God and His plan and that He will make all things right! That IS the Good News!!" I am glad God has given me the opportunity to express my faith to those who thought I might be going off the deep end. So many words in reference to my beliefs flowed from my lips this week and I know it was God using me and protecting me at the same time. I pray that the Comforter remains with me in the weeks, months and years to come.
God Bless all of you and sustain you as he has sustained me.
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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Eileen, Arcturus is so right on this. I can only bear your pain for a few moments then I have to leave off on the thread. We're not going to forget you Eileen and we'll continue to help carry your grief, if only for a small space of time but with everyone sharing, we pray it helps you. judy
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It is hard to feel your pain, as each pain is unique to the bearer, but you can be sure we all empathise with you. May God give you the inner strength and grace to go through this time...God be with you.
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dearest eileen,
i just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. i, like so many here, share in your grief and i completely understand it. it will be 1 year ago on the 24th of this month, that i lay sleeping in my warm cozy bed, unaware that my firstborn child (& his passenger) lay dead in his car in the cold & dark night, under a tree just off the road. i got up that morning, like every morning, showered, and as i was getting dressed i heard the ambulance go by....and like i always did, said a quick little prayer that it wasn't anyone i knew....30 minutes or so later, i got the phone call that my son was in an accident.....my husband & i raced to the scene....we were stopped by a friend, a volunteer fireman who said we could not go to the car because they had not gotten him out yet....i asked him to just tell me if ethan was okay.....this grown man started crying and i knew.....lightening had struck. i hit the ground and my life was forever changed...but unlike so many that say they experience numbness and fog....it was like giant scales fell off my eyes and i was more aware than i had ever been in my life....you see, i was the typical american wife/mom/beast....i was going down the highway of me/lust of the eyes/lust of the flesh/ vanity/pride of life 100 miles an hour. i was stopped dead in my tracks that day. i was struck down & i knew instantly that i was naked, poor, misserable, wrectched & blind. 1/3 of mankind had died in me that day. even though my friends/family tried to console me with "he is fishing with his pappa right now in heaven, or 'he is so happy, he wouldn't come back right now if he could" or "he was saved & he'll be waiting there to meet you when you get to heaven."....i knew, even though i had never heard one ounce of the truth before, i knew deep down in my heart that everything i was hearing was BS! i knew i had to find God, the one true God, somehow, and i knew if i could find Him, i could find the truth....i didn't know how, or where or what, but i had planted in me that day a deep, all-consuming
fire burning to find God.....i begged, i pleaded, i screamed and cried....friends and family encouraged me to see a doctor, get therapy, get xanax, valium,...the worlds answer to pain.....NO! i told them that i NEEDED to feel every ounce of this pain....i didn't know why at the time, i just knew that i needed it....this was between me and God....for the last year, mountains have been moved, valleys have been raised, houses have come crashing down,...
it is hard for me to fully comprehend what a journey my grief has lead me on.....i have grown in ways that i could never imagine, i have died in ways that i never dreamed....it has been the worst of times/the best of times....
but i have a peace/a calm in the middle of the raging sea....and i could have never endured on my own...God sustained me through it all....He lead me when i was blind...He had pity on me, a poor wretched sinner.....
even though a year has passed, the tears still come so easily, but there is always the hope that i have been so graciously given....and even though there is so much i don't know and have yet to learn, God has enabled me to have a greater compassion & be a help to those going through a similar experience. 8 months after my son died, a good friend of mine lost her 15 year old son in an auto accident...i am able to comfort her in her grief in a way i never could had i not been through this experience....
God will never leave us nor forsake us. He will give us the strength to endure even though there were times i didn't think i could. He will grow us through our pain...and use our growth to help others.
anyway, i just wanted to share my story with you, in hopes that you will be encouraged....life does go on, although never the same way.....all is of God.
prayers and love,
lauriellen
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i have grown in ways that i could never imagine, i have died in ways that i never dreamed
Those are precise words of deep rooted accuracy. I can feel the far reach of God as He works in souls He elects to conform to the beautiful Image of His Son our Lord. It is no beauty treatment of the girls chosen for the King who Queen Esther married. Oh no. The pain is deep and the surface of lifes smiles and pretty pretences, just do not connect with any harmony. The flesh does not accept the Spirit.
We are blessed to be sharing such deep insights into our journey that God has appointed to us all.
Our feelings and reflection on God who does all things for a Grand and Worthy Purpose, helps us all as we believe, grieve and go on through the endurance and patience He gives to us.
That you pray for us, in your moments of deep work God is doing for you, is so valuable. Pain and Purpose unite in acceptance when we know and believe God.
lauriellen
Thank you for sharing your experience God gave to you and for being so honest with your feelings and love for us all here. Thank you.
Pa
Arc
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I sit amazed at the depth of you ladies who have walked through such horrific valleys as these and come out the other side with such words of wisdom and God honoring lives. I want you to know how much I respect you and am thanking God that He placed you in my life.
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Eileen, you have been such a blessing to all of us of how God has been helping you endure this hard time of your life. I think and pray for you and have shared with my family of your loss.
In His Love,
Marlene
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Just wanted to let you know that you all are in my prayers.
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My brother sent this to me in an email and it really made me feel like I am on the right track.
Hope your hanging in there. I still get tears in my eyes so I can't imagine what is like for you but your tough and have a good faith despite what mom may think.
I'm glad God has strengthened me at least in front of my blinded family.
Eileen
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That is awesome Eileen. My hope is always that if anyone finds our beliefs "out there" that they will at the very least see how much we love our Savior and trust in Him.
Good job.
Hope you are finding peace and joy.
Lin
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I'm glad God has strengthened me at least in front of my blinded family.
And certainly before your family here in this Forum, we see the Light of His Spirit shining through you to assure, strenghten and encourge us with you Eileen.
I am so glad you posted and shared. You have been present in my thoughts.
We can count on Christ and His Spirit who has the love to see us through. :)
Blessings to you and your children and family Eileen
Arc
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Huggs, prayers, love and hope,
Roy
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Amen Eileen! You're a light to us all.
Thank you and love to you in Christ,
Vangie
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Eileen,
Love and hugs to you for your comfort.
Sorry to be so late in responding, I just read the original letter today.
Please know that all those who sent their concerns and many others as well, are praying for you.
I am beginning to see from your replies that God is comforting you and that your trust is growing.
In that way you are an inspiration to each of us. In that way you let us share in your grief.
Sincerely, Bob
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Dear Eileen, your family and friends cannot deny your faith in Christ as Linny has mentioned. That theirs would be so great as yours!!!! God knows and the rest doesn't matter. I still think about you, especially at night when all are gone and you are alone in your bed.
My husband's brother was killed years ago and just after his marriage, their child was born with a cleft palate and lip. For yrs. the family gathered around. The little girl is now grown with children of her own but she has never forgotten we were all there during her many surgeries. There was a difference in beliefs but there was a lot of love and theological issues were never discussed.
Of course, the big one concerning her husband as I look back would have been immediate ressurection. I would have had to phrase my words differently now(new belief) without bringing her more sadness as she took such comfort in hers. It is hard for me to understand when someone dies that the extended family will not respect the beliefs of the immediate family. Love, judy
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I am not doing all that well. I have done a thousand things in these past four weeks and now as I sit home alone, I have no more things to do and so I dwell on Mark and keep wishing things were different. I want him back more than I can say. I cry when I'm alone because the kids are able to move on but their loss is different than mine. The hardest part is when I am feeling so depressed, Mark is not here to console me and he is the only one who could.
I go to work every day and just go through the motions all the while just trying to distract myself from thinking about Mark. The fact that I am supposed to be back at work makes me think I should be moving on and I just can't. I feel hopeless and despair and distraught. I pray to God to take this pain away from me. I just don't want to live with the pain and sorrow. Widows tell me you never get over it. That's depressing to me. My heart is aching. He filled me with laughter. When we went on one of our first dates, my cheeks literally hurt from laughing and smiling and now it's all gone. Memories only make me long for yesterday (like the Beatles song).
I helped someone I never met today. To me it was a small gesture but to her it was the miracle she had been praying for. She cried as she told me why what I had done was so important to her. She called me an angel and said "I know God is going to bless you for this". She said "please let me know if something good happens to you". I told her I am far from an angel. Later I emailed her and told her that I have had many blessings in my life already and that maybe God was just blessing her through me and I asked her to just pay it forward. For that moment, I felt my life had meaning but it soon dissipated.
Thanks for listening.
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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dearest eileen,
i can say that i know EXACTLY how you feel...i am a little further down the road in my journey of grief, and have been right were you are...please be patient with yourself....i believe God, in His great wisdom and love, only gives us as much grief at a time as we can handle, and when it becomes too much to bear, He gives us a 'rest'....it has been that way for me for the past year...my grief ebbs and flows like the tide,...but in time you will see that you will notice changes in yourself, that only you would recognize, and you will KNOW that you are doing better and making progress in your journey. My heart aches for you, as i know this is not a journey you chose, but was chosen for you, we don't get a choice and the decision is so final, no negotiating, no pardons, no 'i'm not ready for this'....we feel so helpless to change our situation.....it is frustrating to feel so completely helpless and out of control....i understand the days of feeling like life is not worth living, i felt dead inside and that i didn't want to go on, but one day i looked at my family and knew how selfish i had been to feel that way....your family NEEDS you, if you are 'okay', they will be 'okay'....if you are not, then they will not be either....it is just our cross to bear and only God knows why....i will tell you that the pain never does go away, but you learn to live with it, BUT you will also find joy again....your pain will always be a part of you, but JOY will also be there, too....kinda like learning to walk with a limp for the rest of your life...
i put these quotes by Ray on my FB page today in hopes that they would help someone, maybe they will help you:
"To be in the IMAGE of God means that we will have the very same CHARACTER AND LOVE of God. Character and Love cannot be created instantly; it can only be developed over a period of time under severe pressure and duress. And so God creates severe pressure and duress, which produces GODLY CHARACTER. Imagine creating "patience," INSTANTLY? Why the very thought is self-contradicting. Patience by its very nature means that something must be WAITED FOR even though it is desired NOW.
God knows what He is doing. Now then, there is a second part to all this. We ourselves would never ever really appreciate the qualities of character, virtue, and love, that we will possess if we did not have to "sweat blood" to get them. There is no virtue that you can name that is not the result of overcoming some form of evil. And so this physical, human, temporal existence is as beneficial for US, and it is to GOD."
keep talking to God, He will walk you through this valley, and you WILL come through.
“But He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold” (Job 23:10).
any time you need someone to talk to, i would be glad to help in any way i can....my email is lecallicoat@hughes.net or you can send me a private email on this forum.
love and prayers,
lauriellen
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Keep talking Eileen, it is way, way to early to "move on" I hate the new word passed around, "closure"
My friend's husband left her and people expected way too much and too soon. Don't let anyone do that to you. However long it takes, take it !! Talk, talk, talk, about your husband, make an album for your children with all the wonderful moments you and your husband shared. CRY as long as you want. Don't try to be too heroic in front of your children, let them comfort you. It is good for them.
Mail me, I want to hear all about him and you. If grief is not shared it can bring you down. We have a shelter where children who have lost a sibling or friend can go and be together and share their grief. Have you ever seen people from other countries and how they grieve? They wail and holler, hold on to the caskets and here we are supposed to be stoic and civil. God is not offended, He, Himself wept..
It's going to be one day at a time for a long time, the worse is now. Some day but not yet.
We love you. judy
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The One you love and HE is not dead He is Risen. Mark will sleep till HE our Lord, touches him into newness of life and by then, God will have wrought in you those changes you feel happening that will change you for Mark who will understand and join you in your love for God that is being re-newed every painful step of your way. Your love for God is being renewed. That is worth living for, that God alone is making you live for He is working in you, His Promise of life without death, life without tears and life of His Son Jesus Christ who is Risen.
Keep living Eileen as you die in sorrow and embrace loss, you will by the Spirit of Christ find hope as and when He feeds your weary soul, broken heart and tear strained eyes, and you will live, like you have never lived before. We all will.
We all have to go through, in some way shape or form, what you are experiencing. Pick up the signs along your way of His Presence with you to perhaps share with those who shall come behind you so you might help them and encourage or lift them through this terrible experience of desperate inner anguish that you shall pass through to another side unlike anything you can imagine. There are those before and behind us but more importantly He is with us working all things to good for you and for us who Love God and care about you Eileen as we see Him in you walking the way known to Him and His Disciples.
Blessings to you
Deborah
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You've been in my thoughts...and prayers
Sendings hugs,
Brenda
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I can hardly believe the love that you, complete physical strangers, have exhibited towards me. I am not sure that I could be that loving. I'm pretty selfish and feel selfish just expressing me grief to you all. Therefore, I feel completely undeserving of your responses but thank God for them just the same. I seem to have no trouble going on and on about my woes but can't seem to express enough how much I appreciate the support I have received here on this forum. I pray God strengthens me and makes me more like all of you.
Thank you again and again. Would any of you be upset if I shared with my family some of things that you all have written to me? I would like them to know the type of good people I am involved with just in case they think I am into something like scientology. You know, just to put their minds at ease.
BTW here is something my sister said to me in email after I spoke about my faith at length to her last night.
I like to listen to what you have to say about your faith. It makes alot of sense, I feel alot of the same things you feel, i just have not given up on the organized religion i guess. It is more comforting to hear you than to hear Regina, I don't agree with everything but i can understand a little bit better. So I wasn't just being patient, i was listening and thinking about what you were saying.
Love in Christ,
Eileen
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Hi Eileen
What is written in the Forum is for the world to see. Any one any where any time, has access to read the BT Web site and Forum that it published for public perusal. The Forum is not a closed in camera room of secrecy. Some 6million people have visited this site since its inception.
I believe as long as you do not change the content or alter in any way, what is written by the individuals who have posted, then you should feel free to communicate what ever you feel to who ever you feel for what ever reason you feel.
Ray sets the example we should adhere to: bible truths.com or bible-truths. Everyone is welcome to copy the material on this site and freely distribute it to others. You do not need permission from us to do this. All we ask is that you give us credit and do not in any way, CHANGE, PLAGIARIZE or SELL any material from bible-truths.com.[/b]
Everything we do is before God, so no, I would have no problem if you want to share anything I have written. As for Scientology, the founder L Ron Hubbard once lived next door to us in Rhodesia...now Zimbabwe. I was 8 years old and he became my Fathers best friend before he dissappeared....Hubbard that is...not my father. My parents never did believe in Ron's Church....He told my father that if he wanted to make millions...all it took was to think of a gimmik....well the rest is history! :D
Arc
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Go for it Eileen!!! Judy