~To whom it may concern ~
You need some help. You need some material and or financial help. It can come from others who can share or not feel the giving. It won't cost them anything or even if it does, better still. You will take their help. Even if some feel the sacrifice, you would be most grateful, especially if anyone gives from their own lack, right, like you have done and have been doing? I get it. Not that you want anyone to be harmed by their giving to you, yet if it is a “sacrifice” like the sacrifice that Christianity teaches us to endure by giving out of our own want to “Christianities” work, that is better than ours, because they are spreading the Word of God, right, well, that is what a real good Christian would know about, and, well that would make you more grateful right? I think I understand.
You know we cannot help out to remove our physical disability so you do not ask about that. I get it. So if someone can give you some help you are hurting for and needing, and if they can not feel it, yet just give you a break, then they will be blessed of God right? If that someone hurts to help you, then they will be blessed even more, right? I think I understand.
I have no money to give you. What I have, I will give you. Perhaps, God willing, it may strengthen you in Hope and Endurance.
I know you are in a crisis sent by God for you to experience. I know you have a wonderful finance because that is in the Plan of God for you. I know we should not risk going against God, to despise resent or go against Him to reject or be offended by what God in His Wisdom knows is best. I know this is very difficult to do and in fact is impossible to achieve without the Presence of the Spirit of God within causing, manifesting and accomplishing within His Temple and Kingdom that is His Work to accomplish this Godly nature that is His to Give and His to manifest.
I know God is putting you into your circumstances and what happens is Christendom uses the very circumstances of pain, suffering and despair, fear and trepidation, to fleece the sheep and make merchandise of souls in the conditions sent by God to try, in fire and deeply painful situations such as yours. I know it hurts deeply, profoundly and beyond any human capacity to describe.
You have asked us not to use Scripture or the Word of God to reply to you. Do you not want to be including God in this circumstance and yet it is God who Causes all circumstances and HE IS your circumstance!
Do you not want to know how or why that is? Do you want God to shut up and do you want God’s own, not to refer to what we know of our Father and what He has to say about our circumstances?
When we are told to fear God, we are to eventually realize enough about God to know that it is Him not people who have let us down because it is God, ALL GOD, who has turned friends to not give us any help because it is GOD teaching us by example, that human kind is not a good investment. You can give a human everything of yours and still they will not give you one grain back with gratitude or acknowledgement. That is the nature of humanity. Humanity is a Beast. We learn this by very painful personal experience. It hurts like proverbial Hell.
God can and does and is able to make abound anything to us, including all our needs that God causes anyone of us to have in the first place! Everything is of God. EVERYTHING and it is so very deeply painful to get that! I sorrow for your pain and want to tell you, With Love, all things are possible and God says so.
I don’t have a dime to send you but it cost me much more in time, thought and expense to send this on the internet from South Africa to you….and God paid, caused and facilitated the expense. He paid it all.
I know God is Powerful and also that He can do ANYTHING! And He does! May be, God willing, this will give you Hope and Joy and Strength required to continue to endure the trial of pain, fear, despair and suffering that God has authored for your experience. I know it hurts. There are others here, dear others, who know what pain is and can relate to pain in its horrible names, shapes, forms and manifestations.
Maybe, God willing, you will not walk away. It is a bitterly painful experience to die in the arms of love as, others are doing daily here. Money doesn’t help
~ Only God can. :'(
Arc