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The brightest tool in the shed. This was painfully obvious today in class. I've got heart and I desire to good. I'm no quitter and I'll never give up but please pray for me if you can. My exam is september 1st. There is alot riding on this exam.
God has certainly given me the fortitude and the dexterity to study every day for numerous hours (Thanks for the people who are praying for me constantly, of this I have no doubt). Something I could never do before but I'm still not there yet. My mind is still very weak at analyzing and solving problems through the smoke screens, chaos and that exist within each given passage under extreme pressures of limited time for each given passage/question.
So please, I know i'm being selfish and I'm sorry. I promise I will repay you all someday, someway, somehow by the grace of God. But please, please pray for me. I'm not asking to be a super intelligent arrogant pompous person who can solve any problem, I'm just asking that the Lord would be so merciful as to impart me with His wisdom and understanding that I may understand His creation not only spiritually but physically and scientifically so that I too, by His most marvelous love and divine influence upon my heart - may do good. So that I may get through this and be a physician like my God. (Albeit one who pales vastly in His comparison but nevertheless, one who stands in the shadows of His wings.)
Thank you.
Much love to you all. I know you guys have issues a million times worse than mine and I'm sorry but please know I love each and everyone of you and I will do everything in my power one day to help each and everyone of you so long as the Lord keep His hand close upon my heart.
God bless you all.
Alex
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I will pray for you, Alex. God's will be done.
Remember, you're being transformed by the renewing of your mind so you're not there yet -- none of us are yet.
So what do we do? We obey Christ and seek FIRST the kingdom of God and His righteousness, all of these things shall be added to you.
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alex, lil brother. i'm just gonna go ahead and ask Jehovah to shower favor upon you. it happens. He loves you. and He is with you even when you are sweating bullets taking your test.
Favor, mercy, and grace i ask on your behalf, amen.
claudia
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We will be praying for you, my bro Alex! :)
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Thank you everyone that is or has prayed for me. Words cannot express my gratitude. You are all, Lord willing, in my prayers.
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Alex Brother,
I've been praying for you and will continue to do so.
8)
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Thank you Jesse and thank you Godisgracious, your words are very kind to me. I'm giving it my best shot as God allows, everyday.
Btw Jesse, did you delete your facebook? You're no longer on my list :(
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Yessir I haven't been on since the end of January, and it feels so good! This time I'm going to stay away for good. Never fear, we shall keep in contact on here. 8)
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Yessir I haven't been on since the end of January, and it feels so good! This time I'm going to stay away for good. Never fear, we shall keep in contact on here. 8)
Pshhhh, fine! :P J/k, sounds good xD
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hi Alex, lil alien boy, of course i will remember you in thoughts and prayers...let us know how you do!
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You know.. I could have swore dennis posted in this thread, "rev." I was going to reply to him but now it's gone.
Well Dennis, if you read this;
A friend of mine..her mother, she gave me a stethascope. She knew how hard I had been studying and knew my desires and she gave me the stethascope that her son, keegan (I probably misspelled that) had recieved from the doctors. Her Son keegan was born with many disabilities and was often frequently at the hopsital and his mother spent alot of time their with him as well. Sadly keegan passed away and I believe it was around the age of perhaps 16 years old. Well, this as about 15 years ago or so, though my timeline could be off so don't crucify me if I have these dates wrong (You get the idea though :P) and this friend of mine, her mother, she had kept the stethascope all these years that the doctor had given her son many many years ago. Well.. for my birthday, she gave it to me.
There are no words to describe such a gift... I ... I was speechless, I , I wanted to refuse the gift. How could I take this from her, how could I accept this? She insited though, she insisted. She told me, She said, "Your hearts in the right place alex and the road is going to be hard and it's going to be long and you will probably fail along the way but I want you to succeed. Don't give up."
Now I'm paraphrasing part of that, as this was a few weeks ago as my birthday recently passed but.. I took this as a firm sign from our Lord, from my Father that this is exactly where He wants me to be and that He's going to make me learn what it means, to be like Him.
Honestly, my friends mother.. she.. well thinking about it makes me teary eyes because I never knew keegan and to know that his story, is something that has reached me and has absolutely moved me and to know I recieved such a beautiful gift. How could I ever repay him? He doesn't even know me but his mother knows me and she was moved to give me his stethascope.
I just.. There are no words to describe this event that happened to me. I can never be 100% certain of what it all means but it happened, and it was real and it moved me but most importantly it re-assured me. God said, I am here alex, You are where you are suppose to be in life and your future is in my hands, do not fear.
Gah, it's to hard to think about this all, makes a man tear up. Ugh. aodfjaoisf Anyway dennis... that's my story for ya.
And gmik, thank you for the prayers. It is because of my family, you all, that I have been given such fortitude and strength to study every day nearly without ceasing, for this exam.
I Will certainly update you all when I take the exam (September 1st) as to how I think I did.
Much love to you all.
In Christ,
Alex
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excellent story alex. i enjoyed it alot. now, do the best you can at every turn in the road, and make your friend's mother proud. she believes you can do it.
your heart is being divinely influenced. that's His grace. continue to believe and trust in Him, and walk in that believing/faith. i'm cheering for ya lil brother!
claudia
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excellent story alex. i enjoyed it alot. now, do the best you can at every turn in the road, and make your friend's mother proud. she believes you can do it.
your heart is being divinely influenced. that's His grace. continue to believe and trust in Him, and walk in that believing/faith. i'm cheering for ya lil brother!
claudia
Well thank you Claudia. I'm glad you were able to enjoy it, it was a very moving moment for me indeed.
Thank you for the support, i'll never be able to truly repay any of you for all the support and love you've given me but Lord knows I'll try my very best, if not today, then someday most certainly.
God bless,
Alex
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you owe none of us anything alex. your love, support, like-mindedness in the True Gospel, and diligence are given to us every time you post. just continue to keep faith in God and His power, as a shield for your right hand and your left as you continue this journey. i am finding that this is the only way we can stay strong as we each go through our tests in this life. and i have to remember to put on this armor every day. without it we get sliced up by our adversary. but, we have a Strong Helper.
claudia
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you owe none of us anything alex. your love, support, like-mindedness in the True Gospel, and diligence are given to us every time you post. just continue to keep faith in God and His power, as a shield for your right hand and your left as you continue this journey. i am finding that this is the only way we can stay strong as we each go through our tests in this life. and i have to remember to put on this armor every day. without it we get sliced up by our adversary. but, we have a Strong Helper.
claudia
So very beautifully put Claudia. Truer words never spoken. I pray for the whole family, that we may all wear His armor until the day of His coming, which hopefully.. is near!
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So everyone, just to keep you updated;
Today marks officially, the one month mark until my exam. D-Day, T-minus 30 days.
I can honestly say that it is because of your continuous prayer support that I have had the fortitude and endurance to study the things that have been required of me but I write again to simply say that I am not out of the woods yet.
This final month will be the most trying time, as my class for the exam has now ended and I no longer have the direction and guidance of my instructors... Now is the most difficult time because I must continue to study as much and as often as I can without the structure that the course had provided me. Without the schedule the class had set out for me.
I feel terrible again for asking but please, if you can remember me in your prayers, please pray the Lord continue to uphold me, that His grace be upon me. His divine influence upon my heart so that I may finish this and see it through to the end. I trust the Lord fully, I have no confidence in myself but i do have hope because I put my confidence in the our Father.
For those of you that do pray without posting, I thank you kindly for the bottom of my heart. You are in my prayers though I may not know you by name, I still do pray for you and everyone that I can remember by name, Lord willing.
Again, thank you, whatever comes of this, I thank you knowing it is a dept unto you all that I will probably never be able to fully repay.
I told my brother this today; "The greatest thing anyone could ever do for me, is to pray for me." I meant it and I still do. It is the greatest gift I could ever receive from anyone so thank you for giving me the greatest gift. God bless.
With much love in Christ,
Alex
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Thanks for the update Alex. It's good to hear that God has been upholding you (I believe "fortitude" and "endurance" were two of the things I requested our Father to grant you ;) ).
Keep up the good work and may the Lord's will be done. :)
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Thanks for the update Alex. It's good to hear that God has been upholding you (I believe "fortitude" and "endurance" were two of the things I requested our Father to grant you ;) ).
Keep up the good work and may the Lord's will be done. :)
Thank you Jesse! I know you probably get sick of hearing please and thank you but it's all I can offer for now.
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UPDATE!! T-MINUS 1 week until Normandy invasion. D-DAY is rapidly approaching.
I have used by God's grace, all the strength He's given me to study with by the prayers that you have all sent me.
It has always been in His hands. I'm going to attempt one more practice test or two before the test day, last minute memorization etc... but I'm at the end here of my studying and this test is upon me. All I can do is hope and pray I get the just the right test that has all the things I'm good at in a way I understand them so that everything falls into place and I'm able to place a high score of 35-36.
Thank you again everyone and God bless. I will certainly let you know how the test goes and ultimately the score I received.
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UPDATE!!!!
Attention dear forum members!!
My exam is TOMORROW! AT 8AM PACIFIC STANDARD TIME.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, DON'T FORGET ME IN YOUR PRAYERS TONIGHT!
I will be relaxing today, taking it easy. Whatever I know, is there now and I really can't get much more in my tiny brain then already is there. So, as it's bee said a million times, It's up to the Big Man, as it always has been. What comes of this, comes of it.
God bless and thank you a million trillion times over!!
Sincerely,
You brother in Christ,
Alex
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All the best to you, Alex. You have the right attitude.
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prayers that His mercy and peace will be with you as you walk into the room where you will be taking your exam alex. He's got your back. no matter what the outcome, He is with you.
claudia
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Just got back home from taking the test. It is finally over, the dawn is breaking over these last, brutal, three months. I'm glad it's over, it's a relief.
I feel confident but my confidence has often times led me a stray so I will find out in 30 days what my score is and bite my tongue until then.
So ill let you all know in 30 days.
Here's to hoping God got me through this, on the first shot. It's going to be brutal having to do this again if I don't get it right the first time but I know I'm not the smartest kid, I Just have heart thanks to God and I know that the Lord doesn't like to make things easy on us. Nothing good in life is ever easy, unfortunately. So might have to re-do. I'm not closing my mind out to that possibility. Hah.
Again, thank you all.
Sincerely,
Alex
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You have a really good outlook on things. Yes, here's to hoping God got you through that test the first time!
When someone asks the area of medicine you want to go into, what do you say?
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You have a really good outlook on things. Yes, here's to hoping God got you through that test the first time!
When someone asks the area of medicine you want to go into, what do you say?
Thank you Gina. I try and keep my head up, despite the doubts that attempt to creep in and the fears that go along with it.
I want to work in the Emergency room or in pediatrics. I know, two different ends of the spectrum but they both sound good to me. They say a lot of medical students think they want one thing over another but then when they get into medical school and start doing their rotations (3rd year+) they tend to change their minds. So we will see, if I even make it that far. I have strong desires for ER or Pediatrics like I said but because of what has been said before, I might end up in an entirely different specialty lol.
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And see, I think that's a wise position to take.... having a pretty good idea of where you'd like to be now but knowing that God will place you where -- well, wherever that may be!
:)
Exciting times for you, Alex.
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yeah, that's the attitude Alex!
I try to do alike.
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Hey all,
Just thought I'd give you the final end to this chapter.
I scored a 28, which was no where what I needed. I needed atleast a 33 or higher on my MCAT score.
So what does it all mean? Well it means for now, I probably am not getting into med school.
Where do I go from here? Well I keep moving forward. Finish my bachelors of science in biology and then take it from there as to where God wants me to go.
I still want to be a Dr. and I'm not giving up on that..I can't see myself doing anything else in this life. I went down that road before, looking, wondering, not wanting to work for what appeared to be the only thing for me to do with my life. It all brought me back to the reality though that, that is where I belong. Well now It's just going to take me a little longer to get there than what I was hoping. It also means ill be retaking the MCAT. Quite a nitemare and I don't look forward to having to do it again if that be the case but God never said it was going to be easy and in fact we know it is through much tribulation that we enter into the kingdom. So Jesus bring the rain. Let me love the sick, your flock and children as you did. Teach me what it means to be like you.
What do I take from all this? Well aside from what I Just mentioned; I have no regrets in how hard I studied for this exam and I am so thankful for all the prayers that were sent my way. I have never studied so hard in my life and I know it is no doubt that it is because of all your prayers and love. All of you who upheld me in your prayers day and night. For that I am forever thankful and I know it made a huge difference.
I went into my prepatory class scoring 17 and below on practice mcats, the highest I peaked was a 30 on practice towards the end of my long studying and on the final test I scored a 28. Not what I was hoping and praying for but God has a reason for all things.
Can't say I'm not bummed but I also can't say this means game over or the end. I know it doesn't.
Anyway thank you all for everything.
God bless,
Alex
P.S. if anyone knows any scriptural verses about overcoming adversity, beating the odds or scriptures of success that are uplifting, feel free to share them. :) Thanks.
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Hi Alex
Ho well, that's how it was spooned to hapen. You still have the knowelege of all that much studies and better skills for studying long and hard. Don't let any institution to put you down. You have the right attitude. Now days with the internet you can learn so much from journals and respectful websites.
Does being a nutrition scientist catch your attention? Just wondering...
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Hello Janine,
Thank you for your encouraging words. I suppose, if someone finds inspiration then great.
My selfish mind isn't finding much comfort in that thought right now though but that's not your fault or anyone else's.
But I don't want to end on that note, I am very sensitive to your encouragements, kind words and never ceasing prayers for me. I can't thank you enough for that.
Moises,
I'm not sure, I never looked into it and to be honest my mind is still set on one thing. I'm a stubborn guy, the Lord made me stubborn whether it's for the better or worst remains to be seen. In some area's I suppose it can be a good thing because it keeps me striving and moving forward. I'm not one to accept defeat but again if the Lord wants me in another field or another area of the medical field than He's got to speak up and move me in that direction otherwise I'm going forward.
I always had the impression God wanted me to be a Dr. So i don't know what to say other than if at first you don't succeed, try, try again.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I am taking nutritional biochem, I believe, next semester for my minor in chemistry with my B.S. of biology but that's up in the air and if I do take it, I highly doubt it will change my desire from wanting to help save lives to being more specifically involved in nutritional affairs only.
=]
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hi alex. i am sorry that you did not get the score you wanted. i know you studied long and hard for your exam. don't let discouragement root itself in your heart.
i will pass on a couple of statements from a book i have which reminded me of you, and your "stubborn" desire to continue on your path of becoming a doctor;
"faith is the daring of the soul to go farther than it can see."
"even if i knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces, i would still plant my apple tree."
so, keep on going alex. and most especially, keep on going to Christ for your strength and endurance.
claudia
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hi alex. i am sorry that you did not get the score you wanted. i know you studied long and hard for your exam. don't let discouragement root itself in your heart.
i will pass on a couple of statements from a book i have which reminded me of you, and your "stubborn" desire to continue on your path of becoming a doctor;
"faith is the daring of the soul to go farther than it can see."
"even if i knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces, i would still plant my apple tree."
so, keep on going alex. and most especially, keep on going to Christ for your strength and endurance.
claudia
Claudia, thank you so much for the kind words. Those quotes were amazing. I love the one about faith. Thank you for sharing them with me. They are so very inspirational and I need a bit of inspiration.
I'm stubborn and it sucks but I figure if God wants me somewhere else, He is going to have to move me there because I sure as heck ain't going anywhere on my own except the only way I do know how to go which is forward down the same path.
I will by His grace, always move forward in Him.
Kindly,
Alex
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9 out 10 times or more.......I go kicking and screaming dragged.......my will is what I want....do you hear me? mine mine mine! LOL I can relate all too well....I wonder what is the will of the Father how do I submit to it if I am sure what I am doing is right?
I'm stubborn and it sucks but I figure if God wants me somewhere else, He is going to have to move me there because I sure as heck ain't going anywhere on my own except the only way I do know how to go which is forward down the same path.
I will by His grace, always move forward in Him. (this was your quote lilitalienboi16 but I am not savvy enough to do the quote thing right I think here LOL)
:) I pray and end all prayers.....with thy will be done......for as I learned....I want it....but I don't wanna want it.......the things of the flesh that is.....but of course I want it! my sinful nature wants.....but the Spirit empowers us to over come.......we long and hope for what we do not have......after all who hopes for what he sees or already has? only a fool.....our hope is in being made in his image......and resurrected AMEN
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will you be trying again? peggy
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will you be trying again? peggy
You bet ya! I'm not giving up! Only the Lord Almighty puts an end to this dream.
If you want to pray for me, i could always use it as I prepare to get back into study mode. I already started reviewing last night again and doing more practice problems. Kicking back into gear. I've found some inspiration and spiritual strength, I guess you could say, I feel invigerated to go at this again.
I know i've asked already so much of all of you already prayer wise so I won't ask again but if you do happen to remember me one night, please just ask the Lord to allow me to draw upon His strength and wisdom in all this and that His goodness fill my heart so that His will may be done.
The next exam is in January.. I was really looking forward to Italy this winter.. but that might just be cancelled again.. like my summer plans were canceled. Oh wellz, its worth it!
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It has been a JOY following you thru Medical school all these years. I remember praying for you the MANY TIMES you had self-doubt and fortitude AND NOW--LOOK WHERE IT'S GOTTEN YOU!
What if you had QUIT? Where would you be now? That is WHY it is soooo important to have a supportive B-T family behind you! Someday you may even be able to help Samson with his knee problems!
Keep on--keeping on! It will soon be behind you--and your struggles --- a vague memory!
In Christ,
Duane
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It has been a JOY following you thru Medical school all these years. I remember praying for you the MANY TIMES you had self-doubt and fortitude AND NOW--LOOK WHERE IT'S GOTTEN YOU!
What if you had QUIT? Where would you be now? That is WHY it is soooo important to have a supportive B-T family behind you! Someday you may even be able to help Samson with his knee problems!
Keep on--keeping on! It will soon be behind you--and your struggles --- a vague memory!
In Christ,
Duane
Thank you Duane! I'm glad I was able to share this little journey with you all. I don't think it's over and I'm glad I didn't quit. I am forever in the gratitude of all of you for having uplifted me so much throughout my studies. I certainly felt it, like I said before in this thread, I had never studied so hard in my life. I knew it was because of my Father and from the petition of many of you here.
It would be a dream and a blessing to be able to help Samson with his injury one day. To be able to help you all. I want to give aid to people regardless of whether they can afford it or not. I want to also open a bible study one day for those without hope, probably in a hospital like every Saturday. It's a bit ambitious as I'm so overwhelmed right now with research, and classes and then trying to stay involved here and get some time to spend with my loved ones but yea, it's always been a dream of mine.
Soon can't come quick enough! I would love to be over and done with this as many years of uncertainty lie ahead of me still. Such as retaking this exam. Worse comes to absolute worse, I'll probably end up going to a D.O. school though M.D. is still my dream and goal.
God bless,
Alex