I had fallen pretty low just before God brought me in here. God had shown me I could trust him. But, I got my pride hurt and could not forgive some one who hurt me. I ended up doing something worse then they, because of my unforgiving Spirit. Well, God used many circumstances to correct me. But, I wanted to share with you what verse in the Bible led me in here.
First of all God started me on a journey. It did not make sense to me at the time. Yes, I had lost my first love. Started out strong and then latter no growth. But, God brought me to repentance about this thing I had done. I had such great sorrow. All, I could think about is he is done with me. Then , I started reading the Bible and I was reading Hebrews.
But, Hebrews Chapter 10 vers 26 and 27 is what he choose for me to read. For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins. verse 27 But, a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries.
Since, I was blind and had no truth. I was thinking what Babylon taught . I was thinking I was hopeless and should go to Hell. I did not even have the truth , but thought I did. That, scripture kept tormenting me till I finally said, to God let me die. Then I was between a rock and a hard place. I was afraid to die and face the fabled Hell of my mind, which was real to me.
After, a couple of weeks of true sorrow and wishing I could find a way to have joy. I began to pray for truth. I never, first repented in a church. I repented in my Home alone with God almost 30 years ago . I then went into Babylon. But, having this sin in my life I got to where I could not even go to Babylon. Again, in my life God led me to repent at home.
Then, God began to make me pray for his truth. Not knowing , why I was doing that except I felt I did not have it. I began to hate the thought of Hell. I had no where to turn. I could not forgive myself or feel forgiven by him. One, night God led me to type in words Hell and that night and for 3 days and night I could not stop reading Ray's articles. I had joy like I had never had all my time in Babylon. My repentance led to joy. Led to him showing me his truths.
Well, for sure this was all of God. I was like a prisoner set free of my shackles. My life was changed and I pray never let me forget this day Dear Jesus.
I know, that God will keep these scriptures in my mind till I die. I pray everyday help me endure God. Cause, when I think of the pain of my sin and hurting him it breaks my heart, if I should let him down. Yes, I still have sin , but I know the truth now. He has been patient with all of us. All, of this came about because of God. Ray has been very blessed of God! To share Gods truths like this. I thank God he used Ray like this. But, I know All the Glory goes to God.
So, yes even the evil believe of Hell was used for good when God led me in here.
God causes us to repent and he chooses the circumstances to make us repent. Now, I know, it has been God judging me. This is for our own good. Repentance is good. All, the scriptures Antaiwan has showed us speak so loudly to me. I felt, all of this . I have only spoke to a very few people about Ray webstie. But, most that I can say. Since, coming in here the Scriptures have come alive. They were dead to me and I did not know it. I know, if I wilfully sin and do not repent god will take what I have from me. I will not be chosen, but will have to face his fiery judgement in the second death.I would be most miserable should this happen. So, I pray I will not be a hypocrite. I will repent when he shows me and trust him to deliver me. I just don't want sin to rule me. I pray I will not go back to the dog vomit.
But, Hell to me is the prison of our mind we are in, when we have no truth. But, God is a fair judge and will not loose one of his children. So, Repentance is a good thing and can lead to joy. Now, I know I have the truth. Those verses in Hebrews are there for those who know the truth. I believe, to aid me to not sin and if I do repent. Do not go back to Babylon. Do not let sin rule your life. God can enable this. Not, me.
In His Love,
Marlene