Same for me too, Karen. I understand not having anyone to talk to about the deep things of God. Most are content in the carnal aspects of God. It takes more than going to church and tithing 10% of our income to really know God personally.
When I read the book of Job, it gives an example of what the chosen must go through in this life. Here is Job, who was righteous in Gods own eyes, yet He allowed satan to test him. We all know of the disastrous things that happened to him, but one part that stands out to me, is his three friends who try to console Job. Now, these three companions of Job had some very good worldly retorts, to try to justify what Job was going through, but in the end, Job 42:6, is what makes all the difference. Also notice what God said to Jobs friends.
Always, in this life we will have times like these, yet we are in good company. Look at the lives of the prophets in the OT, John the baptist, the apostles, our Lord, and by studying history, the many, many who have suffered for their belief. Truth is, with the belief we have, the world will hate us. More so, by the called believers, than the non believers.
This is why I thank the Lord, for Ray, Mike, this forum and the people here. It is good to have honest spirit felt communication with believers of the same mind.
God bless your heart,
Gary