Hi folks
I felt i should let you know, in case anyone was wondering (yeah gosh i think i must be v.popular ), that i am merely an observer on this site from time to time now and dont come here as often or place as much input. I am having some trouble at the moment regarding relationship with God etc. I understand it all, but feel very let down by him.
Well i wish you all welll
Z
I thought this e-mail to Ray & his response would be appropriate in this thread; Bi-Polar
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So..now what?
I have bipolar disorder. I am destroying my marriage with rage. My husband
smokes more pot than you can even imagine and we are both “saved” and go to
“church” – imagine that.
Ray, I grew up in WWCG. I am more than clear on those doctrinal errors. So, for about
20 years, I decided that I really couldn’t care less about what happens to this body
after I die. I can’t see that far.
I just want this pain to stop. I don’t know how to make my life work. I don’t know how.
I don’t know how to control this beast within before I lose my marriage.
Oh yeah, its hard for me to really call out to God because when I get sick, “he” talks
to me. And we know that God doesn’t talk to people like that. Besides, even if he did
everything that is said contradicts itself. In 1997, when I first got sick, before I was
hospitalized, I was horrified because the 2 weeks of voices made it seem like Satan and God
were the same person. It is kinda like what you say about god creating evil, but far more
frightening.
And when I increase my time in bible study, or meditating or even praying too much, I start
to hear the noise in my head again.
Bipolar is well handled with medication, but I have so many issues from growing up in a cult,
and the dysfunctional family that brought me there – I look like I have it all together. The
doctors call me “high functioning” When all I want to do is just die.
I can’t live with this shame. I feel like such a failure.
So the beast is within, it’s confirmed. Now what do I do? How do I make it through
this life on the way to the next one? How do I stop being sick? How do I stop hurting
people with my own pain? And how do I stop the tears?
I can’t see anything.
Dear Janice:
I get lots of emails like yours (or at least similar). I can't save you, Janice. Only God can save you. God brought you to my site for a reason. Have you read everything?
When one is in your condition, they are perfect candidates for salvation. There is no use in saving those who have nothing they need saving from, right? That's why Jesus said He came to save sinners, not the righteous (as thought there are any righteous, but there are those who think that they are righteous).
You need to cry out to God, Janice. There is no easy fix. There is no easy formula. There are no magic words. Salvation is between you and God. I can encourage you and teach you, but right now you need Jesus, not me. You need to repent of everything that is destroying your life. This will require the Spirit of God. You can only get the Spirit of God from God, not from me. I tell people to PRAY AND OBEY unto God reveals Himself to you. God does not want to frustrate you, but He wants you to come to Him in complete surrender and humility, and judging from your condition, that should not be to very hard. We will be praying for you.
God be with you,
Ray