Hi Rick what you have described above would be a 'limited' free will and I think you have rightly come to the conclusion that cannot be right either. Here is where Ray had addressed that very idea.
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God follows His own spiritual laws. "Free will" sounds like a marvelous and magical thing -- it is rather, however, the god of stupidity. It is the height of man’s foolishness and human wisdom. It is both ungodly and unscriptural! It is an affront to the Sovereignty of God. Man and Satan are not deities that can operate independently of the Creator! The theory is a hoax, a farce, a sham. Its only reality is as an IDOL OF THE HEART which will be burned out of every son whom God scourges.
Of course all theologians are quick to point out that man does not possess total free will. Man's will is obviously limited we are told. Oh really? So it is "limited free will" that Satan and all humans possess, is it? Does no one ever bother to question the contradictions of Christian doctrine?
"Iimited, a. restricted," Webster’s Twentieth Century Dictionary, page 963.
"free, a, without restriction," Webster’s Twentieth Century dictionary page, page 682.
Does everyone know the meaning of the word "contradiction?" Only Satan could convince otherwise intelligent people that they have a "limited" -- restricted, "free" -- without restriction "will." For sure man has a will; however, it is anything but FREE!
"For it is GOD which works in you both to WILL and to DO of His good pleasure" (Phil. 2:13).
"To will" requires a "work" of GOD! We all choose as we choose because there are things and forces and situations by the millions beyond anyone’s control that CAUSE US TO CHOOSE AS WE DO! It matters not that you cannot see or feel the cause. It is there and it does its work on you. And when causes make you choose, then that particular choice could not have ever been otherwise. God is the great CAUSE of all there is.
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Theologians condemn scientists for their inability to see beyond the "relative" in our universe. Surely these scientists must see that a God must be behind everything. However, except for rare persons like Dr. Einstein, they can't.
God is not sitting around waiting to see what man will do through his "free will" so that He can then figure out what to do about it. Rather than conclude from the "wisdom of the world" that man has a free will (and thus deny the sovereignty of God), we must conclude that since God is sovereign, man can not and does not have a free will. This is logical, sensible, and lawful. It is Scriptural and it glorifies God.
Man does not have "limited" free will. Otherwise God would have "limited" sovereignty. Man has no free will and God has total sovereignty. Theologians try to make high what is low and try to bring low what is high. These teachings do not glorify God.
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Rick, we have to get to where we have beliefs that cannot be shake by any kind of human reasoning. That comes from latching on to Scriptural truths and not letting go of them and that creates a solid foundation to stand on. Christ is the Cornerstone, our Rock/Stone by which we stand and that cannot be shaken by any doubts or confusion.
Luke 6:48 He is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid the foundation on the rock. And when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently against that house, and could not shake it, for it was founded on the rock.
We have to recognize that God speaks to us through His Word and through that He is building a solid foundation of truth in us that will hold us firmly in His truth. Ray constantly pointed us to these Scriptural truths, so when we see a foundational truth in the Scripture we need to hold it dear and believe it with certainty, not re-question it's validity over and over again. The more of these truths that we embrace the stronger Spiritually we become, the more we are ready to grow towards spiritual maturity.
Heb 5:13 For everyone who lives on milk is still a baby and does not yet know the difference between right and wrong.
v. 14 But solid food is for mature people, whose minds are trained by practice to distinguish good from evil.
Heb 6:1 Therefore, leaving behind the elementary teachings about the Messiah, let us continue to be carried along to maturity, not laying again a foundation of repentance from dead actions, faith toward God,
v. 2 instruction about baptisms, the laying on of hands, the resurrection of the dead, and eternal judgment.
v. 3 And this we will do, if God permits.
mercy, peace and love
Kat