Hello to all.  I am new to the forum and this is my first post.  I found (was led to) the BT site at least three years ago when I was reading another site.  Someone had linked to BT, which I checked out since things relating to the Bible always interested me.  Up until that time, I had only heard about Universal Salvation from one other source and as much as I wanted to, it was hard for me to believe that it could really be true.
Although I had occasionally gone to church, my coming out of Babylon wasn’t from a physical church building.  I was never part of any “Christian” social circle.  Instead I  watched those TV preachers and they had me convinced that I could never be good enough and that there was no place for me to go but to hell.  It took me a little while to accept that eventually everyone will be saved.  Once I did, that changed everything for me.  I  have a compassion and patience for people that I never had before.  I know now that I’m no better than anyone else.  To me, the most powerful words Ray has written are “the beast is you”.  When I read that, I was shocked and yet I knew it was the truth. 
It’s funny how God gets your attention.    First I was having medical problems that He showed me with a simple change in diet and lifestyle I was able to overcome.  Then He showed me some of the great evil in this world.  At that point, everything that I had accepted and believed in, came crashing down.  Let me tell you, that really hurt.  I was physically ill for a week.  But it prepared me for the good news that I would eventually accept.
Another thing that happened is that I lost all of my friends. They either died or moved far away.  I have no one close to me any more, except my wonderful husband.  But he has no idea of the things I have discovered from BT.  We never discuss spiritual things.  A few years ago we made a trip to Tennessee a week before the BT conference (in Nashville if I remember correctly) but I was too chicken to suggest to my husband that we attend.  
I also no longer believe in free will.  There are things about myself that I don’t like and want to change.  I am struggling with those things now because I always thought change was up to me.  Now that I know I am not in control, it scares me a bit because I think to myself “what if I never overcome these things in this lifetime”.   Anyway, I don’t know of any other place where I can make this confession.  Thank you for taking the time to read.