I can see you are feeling awful Ellie.
When you say it would be nice to have at least one person to talk with, you do know that when you post your comments or thoughts here in the Forum, that more than one person is listening, hearing and observing what you communicate. You may be lonely but you are not alone.
If you mean you desire to have a person physically present to talk to, then I have to say, that it is God that has a purpose for your circumstances right now. It is difficult and painful. Many are experiencing God's work in their lives that is getting into our human relationships, attachments and family life in many diverse ways as you know, but it doesn't quite help ease us out of our personal circumstances does it? Where is the comfort of knowing there are others who are suffering more than us?
Spiritual interaction here in the Forum is one way to not feel so lonely. You know there are so many boards to get involved in and there is usually always a sympathetic and kind soul who will volunteer a response, a laugh, a lift up and a hug through the spiritual lines of our communications.
All painfully difficult circumstances, we are given to experience by God, and God willing, endure and overcome and that right there is reason enough to be praying for one another even through the "good times".
Did you know that Ray prays for each and every one of us every day, here in the Forum. That is such a comfort to me because we need prayers and we need one another to be with us in spirit in sympathy, understanding and encouragement to believe, have faith and trust because in the end Love has to be our reason to keep on keeping on. God is Love. God is our reason and our cause He appoints us to experience all the diversities of joy and suffering.
Arc