Nice post ! When, God first led me to read Ray's articles I was so shocked to find out that I was serving a false God. Then, I wanted to share it with all the lost. Then, I realized I could not teach anyone anything. I was just learning and continue to learn.
I love all the lost in the worldy church systemand the wicked as God does . He sees them as finished. When, I first came in here I had such compassion on the ones in the church system. But, it is Gods plan.
Right, before coming in here I had done something I had such rermorse about, that I felt such torment. I realized I was a hypocrite among other things. I have never been publicly embarrased , but I can tell you God always got me good. Have to say I found repenting about that easy, but then all I could think was I was going to Hell. Only, to find out I did not know anything right.
I do not like the things evil people do. But, it is Gods plan. Also, I remember how Ray talks about we could have been any of those people. Well, I have no doubt about that. I am not proud of anything I have ever done.
God saved my life that night. I wanted to die, but was afraid to. God gave me a miracle that night. He set me free of alot of things. God has given me many miracles through my life. One miracle after the other, but not forgiving someone who hurt me and doing worse then they did humbled me good.Israel looked at all the miracles he did but never saw them. So, they lost the promise.
I can see my self like those in the desert for 40 years. I have been there for a long time. I looked at myself so long that I could not see myself how God does. I tried to obey law (devil) who threw it up to me. I would go back and forth. Now, I just want to learn from this and move on to his Pure Grace .
I now longer have to be tortured by the war going on in me. Wanting to do the good I don't do. Gods Grace is sufficent for me. I have taken my eyes off of my sins. Looking only to Gods Grace. His blood covers all my sins and he is well able to show me when I am not doing something right. He does put himself in us. He keeps me in line. God has been slaying the dragons that come to me. In the begining after learning the truth all kinds of things hit me.
I did not understand what was happening. I kind of was going through what Lupac was going through. I even had the accuser tell me you are not forgiven.
You are going to Hell. Thanks to God he helped me to see the accuser. The accuser uses the old law to keep you looking at the monster you are.
Thats, why Jesus came to die for all who could not keep them. God is well able to save us. If, he needs to correct me he does it lovingly even though it may not seem like it till you see it.
I now look at my self like God does a finished product. I now look at the rest of the world as finished. The enemy comes in may ways. You never knew it while lost. He already had you. Now, he doesn't. I think this is good for everyone to know, because we can share with Lupac and others who do not quite believe God. When, he said finished on that cross it was done in his opinion. When, we see that we will love just like Ray has shown us in his love teachings.
I was afraid when I first came in here after believeing there was no Hell to share with you all the battle going on within me. But, God has helped me to see the enemy myself the acusser the devil . When, we except his Pure Grace with no room for doubt the accuser will flee. God was teaching me and it was not easy, but I am so glad all I want now is to look to him and not self , law or the accuser.
Anything, else is considered to God as unbelief if we turn back.
Paul, battled it so will we who are finding truth.
In His Love, Marlene