My post, "Who is the enemy" and its responses has inspired a testimony of something that happened a few weeks ago as me and the family were sitting in a 50s style hamburger place. Its the first time ever this has happened to me.I didn't post it at first because it deserved a lot of meditation.
For a few years I have been asking God to help me to love and see others as He does.
As soon as we walked in to the place I noticed a man. It was just a glance at first. We took our seat in a booth which placed this man directly in front of my view. He was sitting at a table by himself with no one in front or behind him. I saw he was heavy with his belly hanging over his lap. He was eating chicken fried steak with no teeth. It was the special all you can eat day for chicken fried steak.We were waiting for our order, and I couldn't take my eyes off of this man. He already ate two c.f.s. and was starting on a third. What was it that I couldn't take my eyes off of him?
Suddenly something happened that almost took my breath away. I saw into him, his heart, soul, and mind. An overwhelming feeling of compassion and sympathy. It was if I knew him or rather wanted to know him. I loved this man in an instant. I wanted with all my heart to walk over to him but what would I say? I wanted to sit with him, but what would he think?My heart was so full of a different kind of sorrow, yet not a sad sorrow that I can't explain. I told Silvia something about how I feel so sorry for him and wished I knew him as I fought to hold back the tears from my eyes. I could tell she saw the tear and facial expression of an almost cry. He knew I was looking at him. At one point we held eye contact and smiled at each other.
As we were leaving I still kept looking back regretting that I didn't say or do something to let him know I wanted to be his friend.
I told Silvia the whole story after we got in the car and some more when we got home. It was heavy on my mind.
I knew what had happened when it happened. God let me see and love this man as he does.
It was a wonderful feeling unlike any kind of love feeling I've ever had. It was a peaceful, happy kind of love with compassion, empathy and sympathy off the chart.I wish I could describe it completely but I can't. Well anyway this has been on my mind every since it happened. Also God has been on my mind every second of the day since this happened. All and every thought has been of God. I can't even have a conversation with Silvia that I don't interrupt it with God talk. Not complaining at all. I love it when God puts a fire in me like this. Never though has He gave me an experience such as the one with the man in the burger place.
God in an instant can make us see and love a total stranger just as He does. He can make us love and see anything He wants, and my testimony is proof of it. I want much more of that kind of love and be able to see all people as God sees them.
I have tried to explain this type of love but I can't in any way. I've gone over and over it in my mind but its beyond description. I do know I saw beyond the flesh. This love had no limits.
It was the love of all loves combined together that seems to be something not in this life, yet it is because God let me experience it for a short time. I hope to see this man again. I believe God will arrange it, of this I have no doubt. I have something to talk to him about.
Peace
Roy
I believe I can say that I was in Spirit, or rather consumed by the Spirit way beyond description.