Maybe this is my problem. I'm trying to "save myself". (Like I could...) Only God can save you. And He will.
Now that is wisdom Lupac, way to go, God does makes one see, when HE Is Ready. Read this passage, especially the two long sentences, wow.1Co 1:17-31 (CLV)17 For Christ does not commission me to be baptizing, but to be bringing the evangel, not in wisdom of word, lest the cross of Christ may be made void."
18 For the word of the cross is stupidity, indeed, to those who are perishing, yet to us who are being saved it is the power of God."
19 For it is written, I shall be destroying the wisdom of the wise, and the understanding of the intelligent shall I be repudiating."
20 Where is the wise? Where is the scribe? Where is the discusser of this eon? Does not God make stupid the wisdom of this world?
21 For since, in fact, in the wisdom of God, the world through wisdom knew not God, God delights, through the stupidity of the heralding, to save those who are believing,
22 since, in fact, Jews signs are requesting, and Greeks wisdom are seeking,
23 yet we are heralding Christ crucified, to Jews, indeed, a snare, yet to the nations stupidity,
24 yet to those who are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ, the power of God and the wisdom of God,
25 for the stupidity of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men."
26 For you are observing your calling, brethren, that there are not many wise according to the flesh; not many powerful, not many noble,
27 but the stupidity of the world God chooses, that He may be disgracing the wise, and the weakness of the world God chooses, that He may be disgracing the strong,
28 and the ignoble and the contemptible things of the world God chooses, and that which is not, that He may be discarding that which is,
29 so that no flesh at all should be boasting in God's sight.
30 Yet you, of Him, are in Christ Jesus, Who became to us wisdom from God, besides righteousness and holiness and deliverance,
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that, according as it is written, He who is boasting, in the Lord let him be boasting."george
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