Hi, Mary Ann
I'm sorry you're feeling down. Thank you for the prayer request. It's good to pray for others. It's good for those of us who have been there (and come through it) to remember and not forget that we have been where you are now so that we can help those who come after us. (
Helping others is a gift and a joy as you will also one day see, so thank you for not being too shy to ask us for prayer!)
You said just three months ago you were fine, but now that your faith has been stripped, you feel horrified because you used to feel "alive."
You're going to be alright, Mary Ann, but it doesn't help you to hear that because you want something that's going to take time. I know how that goes! And it doesn't help at all that we live in this "fast food" lightening speed world of Disney characters where problems appear to be able to be solved in an hour!
Look around you: Most things take lots of time. (Take for instance, the Disney characters -- my daughter's an artist and she knows the amount of work and time that goes into making those characters themselves, haha; so even making life seem simple TAKES TIME! haha) And no one here is going to deny that learning patience - one of the hardest things to learn - takes time. I will ask God to first teach you to be patient. God isn't finished with you (or any of us) -
yet.
The good thing about "feelings" is that they aren't necessarily "truth." I know you "feel" like you'll never feel better or that it's never going to get better, but that's not true (Satan's a liar, Mary Ann - that part hasn't changed!).
What you're "feeling" is only for a season and for good reason:
Ecclesiastes 3
1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4 A time to
weep, and a time to
laugh; a time to
mourn, and a time to
dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to get, and a time to
lose; a time to
keep, and a time to cast away;
7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of
peace.
Thank you for reading, Mary Ann. I'll be praying for you, okay? I mean it.
Sincerely,
Gina
p.s. I'm not a doctor, and I wouldn't advise you against seeing one, but I have worked for a psychiatrist in my past for about 5 years up until about 4-1/2 years ago. He was wonderful man with a huge heart. Please read this article and research chemical imbalances (
http://psychdata.blogspot.com/2007/12/there-is-no-such-thing-as-chemical.html) before going on any medication. I'm convinced there are lots of "doctors" who would more than jump at the opportunity to convince you you have a chemical imbalance, and should they succeed in convincing you, please keep this in the back of your mind: you can become hooked on medications to help you with your "chemical imbalance," which means that you can't just "come off" of them cold turkey --
coming off of prescribed mood elevators/enhancers/balancers is something that also takes time -- and I'm not exaggerating when I say - lots of it. So, sure, see a "professional," if you feel you must, but tread with caution and do your research if offered any meds for a chemical "imbalance."