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JohnMichael:
Wow, Alex. Truly, WOW! :) (if I can call you Alex)
You're right. Looking after a crown and a throne as the reason for following God is kind of counterproductive isn't it? Not kind of, actually, TOTALLY.
GK,
I'll admit it. There are days, as I said in my Testimony-Work in Progress post, that I say, "God, you said you'd never put more on me than I can bear, but sometimes, I really REALLY wish you didn't have so much faith in me." I've said it, even in anger (and with a lot more offensive language). Then, this little voice reminds me that it's done because He loves me. If He didn't love me, He wouldn't care. It might be a weird way of looking at it, but that's my thinking.
As I said in that post, I've been raped. I've been beaten (physically and emotionally). I've been called an embarrassment by my own parents. I've been betrayed by family and friends; I've been abandoned by those closest to me. I've been publicly humiliated by people who were supposed to be friends. I've been called everything under the sun by those who were supposed to be friends and family. I have a debilitating illness that doesn't have a cure that I live with every day of my life. I don't have a job; I'm a college dropout; I'm a failure in the eyes of society.
But I still see God's love. I may be getting the everliving cr*p kicked out of me (and it could be a WHOLE lot worse), but I still see and feel His love, and I know it's for something far better than I can currently see. As Alex put it, so what which resurrection I'm in, as long as I get to be with Him, I'll be happy. I'm not saying any of this from a position of, "OOOO look at me" or "Oh, feel sorry for poor old me." Never. I know I'm dirt. I'm worthless. I'm scum of the earth, but that mighty, awesome, powerful God that created the Stars, the Planets, Comets, Galaxies, everything LOVES me - a miserable, broken, weak, wretch of a human being like me. Just knowing that gets me through sometimes when I know I've fallen, I've messed up, and I've sinned. I want to truly be able to say that I love Him with everything in me... God's still working on that in me because I feel so lost sometimes, so far away that how could He ever reach me, but I keep hope, and I keep pressing forward inch by inch, centimeter by centimeter sometimes. Hope springs eternal as the saying goes. :)
And there are lots of people out there that have it a whole lot worse than me. I cry when I watch the news and hear of people going through the absolute scum of life's experience, but just think... if Life can be this bad, this horrible, this corrupt, this disgusting... how much greater and grander will it be with Him? The joy of the Lord, the love like we've never known love before, the peace that passes all understanding, and just to be with Him... makes it all worth it to me.
Hope that didn't come across as preachy or "Bad, GK, Bad!" I didn't mean it that way. I am speaking from the heart. Please, forgive me if it came across as anything other than that. :)
acomplishedartis:
--- Quote from: Dennis Vogel on March 30, 2011, 09:08:56 AM ---God does not beat us and immediately comfort/hug us.
Everyone who goes through the lake of fire in this life will feel forsaken at some point.
I used that example because God likens us to little children.
Heb 12:5 And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:
Heb 12:6 For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.
Heb 12:7 If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?
Heb 12:8 But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye ********, and not sons.
It's not hard to feel God's love when things are going fairly well. But when God decides it's time for you to learn a lesson, you will not be happy with God or what He is putting you through.
I know there are members here going through very hard times and could use just a little joy. But they are not getting it, at least not yet.
And there are some here who have endured chastisement and would not sell their hard fought wisdom for all the money in the world.
God comforts you when it's time and in your best interest.
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thanks for that words.
I have seen that many of the hard times come from not getting what we expect from others or from our own selves. I often put it on this way; if I don't expect anything from... ''the government, institutions, the church, etc...'' -they will never disappoint me.
I would like to say that there is way many many things that I would not do for money (still, we are all victims of our circumstances and we are standing just where we are supposed to be at the moment).
About we dealing with our constantly changing emotions. I find incredible, how can a human will that works according to the deepest emotions and motivations of his weak heart (-by emotions or feelings that become thoughts,-thoughts that give birth to actions if something bigger or stronger doesn't stop them) can be able to little by little change his carnal nature (by Gods inflence) by the renovation of his mind/intellect that need to overcome the great influence of his weak heart. -What a miracle from above.
GaryK:
--- Quote from: JohnMichael on April 10, 2011, 09:48:56 PM ---GK,
Hope that didn't come across as preachy or "Bad, GK, Bad!" I didn't mean it that way. I am speaking from the heart. Please, forgive me if it came across as anything other than that. :)
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Hi JM,
Just saw your posting. You came across as you wanted so forgiveness is not necessary, not to worry. Just keep on doing what you're doing.
As for me and my tantrums and peep-squeak puny fist shaking (HI LOST AND FOUND AND KAT!!...(me again)), me and the big guy in the sky (... ;D...) have an understanding right now. He knows that I think he has some weird ways of showing his love to fit my past and current understanding of love.......... and since he hasn't given me understanding to understand what should be understood........then he knows I'll keep on not liking him very much until he gives me that understanding that I need to understand.
Pretty simple actually.
;)
Meanwhile, after 3 years of continuing to read Ray's material the big guy ( ;D) has shown me I still don't know very much, to keep reading Ray's material, and to keep my mouth shut most of time. I'm not very good at it, but that's his problem. He made me the misfit I am, so I figure and trust he knows what he's doing while he drags me around like a whipped pup. Since we're both highly stubborn, I don't see this square-off ending until he says it' ending and he's taught me the lesson that he knows I need most. Which probably means there's another fist-shaking coming his way since he's being entirely too stubborn about the matter.
:D
Make sense?
gk
This is intended to be a humorous post, see: ;D ;D ;D and no animals or humans were harmed in the making.
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