A Prayer of Pain

[lauriellen]

(i read this prayer in an inspirational book and thought is was really
  beautiful)
           
A Prayer of Pain

Lord God;
     Giver of all life.
     Source of all that exists.
Hear my prayer of pain.

My life is in shambles, for the one
i love dearly is gone.
     Removed from my world.
     Yanked from my heart.

Often i wonder, Lord:
     Am i crazy?
     Am i selfish?
     Am i unfaithful?

Often i question, Lord:
     Are You aware?
     Are You responsible?
     Are You there?

Yet, in the midst of dark moments
Flickers of renewed energy
Spark my soul.
Memories that bring tears sometimes
Bring unexpected smiles.

My broken heart remembers
You are not a distant God
but rather
You are God, revealed as One
who knows grief firsthand.

Lord, i beg for your assured presence.
For those who share my grief
and allow me to be me, i thank You.
For having my heart touched by the Love
of the one now gone,
i thank You.

May Your gentle arms of comfort
Soothe my aching spirit.
May Your name - I AM -
be victoriously proclaimed even in
the valley of the shadow of death.
Amen.

(author unknown)