Hello Mickiel,
There's nothing wrong with having your personal idea's, speculations about Life and considerations about Topics that may not be Scripturally clear. However, We have a specific set of rules that all of us agreed on when joining this Forum and as mentioned By Kat, some Leeway is given, but the Moderators determine how far that leeway is given.
It sounds as if you have a DESIRE to be heard, since you've been rejected quite so often in past experiences, that's understandable, but if that's the case, share your speculations by PM"S or join Facebook so you get share your ideas with a large Universalist Contingency, many from this Site and some of the other Universalist Sites have their adherents discussing things all over Facebook.
As Craig stated about rules, I don't like them either, in general, but the reality is, no one is forced to join the Forum and although no one is flawless, even the Moderators in regards to the application of the Forum rules, these rules seem to work for the greater good of all Forum Members and I've witnessed this since January 2008.
I don't think your necessarily a Wolf, since Wolves are usually much more subtle in hiding their true natures in order to not get detected. Of course, Wolves don't necessarily know they are Wolves, because they bring in deceptive teachings that they themselves have already been deceived by. In my opinion, it seems your looking for validation or to be recognized, instead, put the emphasis on God and consider yourself a piece of Clay in the Potters hand, because none of us are important, We are the refuse of the World, God chose the foolish things of the World, the ignoble things, the weak things in order to put the wise men to shame.
As Craig mentioned, there is much information from this Forum that We can all agree on, you mentioned you agree with 95% of the material from Ray's writings, Well, why not discuss that.
I hope and pray that there are sufficient CAUSES that will lead you to choose and desire to stay here and submit to the Forum Rules. Also, you can never read Ray's articles often enough. Just finished re-reading the Free Will Series and discovered some points of importance I forgot about, will share with you below.
From Part C of the Free Will Series:
“O Lord, I know that the way of man is not in himself. It is not in man that walks to direct his steps” (Jer. 10:23).
No man has a will that can choose contrary to what God already knows will be: “…and calls those things which be not [thoughts and deeds which have not yet been supposedly ‘freely’ thought of] as though they were [as though they already were thought of—how is that ‘freedom’ of the will?]” (Rom. 4:17).
I will repeat this until I am blue in the face, and perchance somebody out there will say, “Ah, yes, now I get it.” Once more: Since God says very plainly that He knows all things and that He knows all things before they happen, how is it then possible that anyone can think a thought which God didn’t know he would have to think? And if God already knows every thought that you must think: how are you free to not think those very foreknown thoughts and those foreknown thoughts only?
If any person in the history of the world can think one thought that God did not foreknow that he would think, then God cannot;
“call those things which be not as though they were.”
“Man’s goings [Heb: ‘steps’] are of the Lord; how can a man then understand his own way?” (Prov. 20:24).
“The preparations of the heart in man, and the answer of the tongue, is from the Lord.” (Prov. 16:1).
No one can make one statement out of his mouth, unless it was first pre-ordained, foreknown, and approved of, by God!
“The Son of man [Jesus] can do nothing of Himself… without Me [Jesus] ye [all of you—all of mankind] can do nothing” (John 5:19 & 15:5].
GOD DID NOT PUT ‘ETERNITY’ IN THE HEART OF MANKIND
“He [God] has made everything fitting [not ‘beautiful’] in its season; However, He has put obscurity in their heart so that the man may NOT find out His work, that which God does.” (Ecc. 3:11).
So God has made everything that there is (even though much of it is evil, ugly, and NOT ‘beautiful,’) fitting, proper, appropriate, and suited for its own season, “but” or “however”—here comes a counter proposal, if you will. So God makes EVERYTHING proper and appropriate for His plan, however…. BUT, “…He has put OBSCURITY in their hearts…” so that, or in order that, they CANNOT know or understand what it is that He is doing to them in this human existence we call “life.” What a spiritual revelation!
We have hundreds of Scriptures that verify the fact that God does do according to His plan and intention, always, and everywhere, but there are few verses as this verse which tells us specifically how He had HID [concealed, obscured] this marvelous operation from the eyes of carnal humanity as this verse does.
But Jesus Christ can set us free from the carnal mind, and give us spiritual discernment, and increase our knowledge, and make us wise so that we can understand. Here then is the revelation of a major mystery:
God uses mankind with his “obscured heart” to do all of His intentions without mankind every consciously knowing that God is working His purpose through them—“so that no man can find out the work that God makes from the beginning to the end.”
A Biblical Example of Someone with An "OBSCURED" Heart mentioned below.
Isaiah 10:5-17:
“O Assyrian, the rod of Mine anger, and the staff in their hand is Mine indignation. I will send him against an hypocritical nation, and against the people of My wrath will I give him a charge, to take the spoil, and to take the prey, and to tread them down like the mire of the streets.
Howbeit HE means not so, neither does HIS heart [his ‘obscured’ heart—Ecc. 3:11] think so; but it is in HIS heart to destroy and cut off nations not a few. For he says, Are not MY princes altogether kings…
As my hand has found the kingdoms of the idols, and whose graven images did excel them of Jerusalem and of Samaria; Shall I not, as I have done unto Samaria and her idols, so do to Jerusalem and her idols? Wherefore it shall come to pass, that when the Lord has performed His whole work [at the hands of the Assyrians] upon Zion and on Jerusalem, I will punish the fruit of the stout heart of the king of Assyria and the glory of his high looks.
For he says, By the strength of my hand I have done it, and by the wisdom; for I am prudent: and I have removed the bounds of the people, and have robbed their treasures, and I have put down the inhabitants like a valiant man: And my hand has found as a nest the riches of the people: and as one gathers eggs that are left, have I gathered all the earth; and there was none that moved the wing, or opened the mouth, or peeped.
Shall the ax [king of Assyria] boast itself against him that hews therewith [God]? Or shall the saw [king of Assyria] magnify itself against Him that saws with it [God] as if the rod [king of Assyria] should shake itself against them that lift it up [God], or as if the staff [king of Assyria] should lift up itself, as if it were no wood [but rather something with free will and the power of self-determinism].
Therefore shall the Lord, the Lord of hosts, send among his fat ones leanness; and under his glory he shall kindle it burning like the burning of a fire. And the light of Israel shall be for fire, and His Holy One for a flame: and it shall burn and devour his thorns and his briers in one day”
That section of Scripture is pretty much self-explanatory. This is a perfect example where God fills in the whys and wherefores of how He operated and worked with the king of Assyria to punish His people, Israel.
But this is also how God works with all kings and presidents, and heads of corporations, and heads of families, and all humanity. God “…works ALL according to the counsel of His Own will.” But just like the King of Assyria, not so is all humanity thinking in THEIR heart. They don’t believe that God uses them on a daily basis just as He did with the King of Assyria. That’s because:
“He [God] has made everything FITTING in its season; However, He has put OBSCURITY in their heart so that the man may NOT find out His work, that which God does from the beginning to the end.” (Ecc. 3:11).
Hopefully, none of Us at this Forum have "An Obscured Heart," like We did in the past by putting the emphasis towards what We did on a particular matter when it's God working ALL according the counsel of His own Will.
Just some thought for your consideration, Samson.