You know.. I could have swore dennis posted in this thread, "rev." I was going to reply to him but now it's gone.
Well Dennis, if you read this;
A friend of mine..her mother, she gave me a stethascope. She knew how hard I had been studying and knew my desires and she gave me the stethascope that her son, keegan (I probably misspelled that) had recieved from the doctors. Her Son keegan was born with many disabilities and was often frequently at the hopsital and his mother spent alot of time their with him as well. Sadly keegan passed away and I believe it was around the age of perhaps 16 years old. Well, this as about 15 years ago or so, though my timeline could be off so don't crucify me if I have these dates wrong (You get the idea though
) and this friend of mine, her mother, she had kept the stethascope all these years that the doctor had given her son many many years ago. Well.. for my birthday, she gave it to me.
There are no words to describe such a gift... I ... I was speechless, I , I wanted to refuse the gift. How could I take this from her, how could I accept this? She insited though, she insisted. She told me, She said, "Your hearts in the right place alex and the road is going to be hard and it's going to be long and you will probably fail along the way but I want you to succeed. Don't give up."
Now I'm paraphrasing part of that, as this was a few weeks ago as my birthday recently passed but.. I took this as a firm sign from our Lord, from my Father that this is exactly where He wants me to be and that He's going to make me learn what it means, to be like Him.
Honestly, my friends mother.. she.. well thinking about it makes me teary eyes because I never knew keegan and to know that his story, is something that has reached me and has absolutely moved me and to know I recieved such a beautiful gift. How could I ever repay him? He doesn't even know me but his mother knows me and she was moved to give me his stethascope.
I just.. There are no words to describe this event that happened to me. I can never be 100% certain of what it all means but it happened, and it was real and it moved me but most importantly it re-assured me. God said, I am here alex, You are where you are suppose to be in life and your future is in my hands, do not fear.
Gah, it's to hard to think about this all, makes a man tear up. Ugh. aodfjaoisf Anyway dennis... that's my story for ya.
And gmik, thank you for the prayers. It is because of my family, you all, that I have been given such fortitude and strength to study every day nearly without ceasing, for this exam.
I Will certainly update you all when I take the exam (September 1st) as to how I think I did.
Much love to you all.
In Christ,
Alex