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So I want to go back to Babylon now! Why?

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Gina:
That's how I feel, Rene.   No desire whatsoever.   I suppose for some it's like an addiction they can't break--like my ciggie habit.  I just love that I don't have to go back to church and be all fake. 

"Oh, Hi!!  How are you!?  Yeah, It's so good to see you too! Okay, well, pardon me while I go pretend like I like being here.  I'll just be waaaaaaay over there near the exit."

I just felt like I had to always be "on."

onelovedread:
Yes Rene. While there are other ways to socialize, it's more convenient to go and visit them at their church where I'm with them for a few hours, than to set up individual meetings with each one at different times, trying to coordinate differing schedules.
I gotta admit too that I'm kind of a boring homebody. When I get home after work or errands  I don't usually want to go out again (moreso since I have this limp from a bad back) especially during the cold Winter evenings.
I hear you, though Rene.

Rhys 🕊:
I bump into people know and then from my church days and usually have a chat with them on the spot. Some  I talk to longer like with a guy I knew from my last church, we talked for along time and laughed a lot, he is very funny, perhaps more than me if that is possible. He has the way of turning something rather ordinary and boring into something quite funny. He started talking about if I was going to church, so I mentioned a few things to why i wasn't going, he seemed to be cool with it. I think with some of my friends from church they talk to much about getting me back because of my musical talents and other stuff. I just turn the conversation on to something else. You know the sort of thing - How's your job going, what's so and so doing now. Some of them can become quite insistent so if that's the case it's time to say Byeeeee......

Rhys ;)

dean kevin heyes:
I feal your pain Rhys , haveing been dragged to HIS truth by gifts,revelations,visions and actions  and not being able to share or tell another believer for whatever reasons is tuff, at times I feel I am going to burst, I know things that made Angels weep and demons tremble and for over six months I have had to bottle it up, I tried once a while back to join a forum but was spamed for hateing Jewish people, because I told them zionism is not Biblical ? All I have to fellowship with is my 4 year old son, {as my wife has not bean gifted faith yet  :( } he tells me all the time that he loves JESUS and comes up with some pretty sound doctrin at times eg: I must have appeared worried ! so he says dont worry tatko/dad let JESUS worry and any way when we kaput/die we will go live in HIS house . know I am trying to write this testimony here on BTF you read my first instalment, I tapped out with my clumsy plumbers finger, took me over 5 hours   :(  , One has to admire L.Ray for his efforts  ???

Rhys 🕊:
Hi Dean

Thanks for sharing. Takes me a while as well to get things out of my head and on to words here as well. I admire Ray to for the work he put in and how God used him, it's a constant encouragement to me.

My interest in church gets less and less and God willing I won't return. I don't mind walking down this path even if it's tough, well at least I'm on the path and it's taking me to the right place. I'm getting use to having to suffer through things and lean upon the Lord in those lonely times. It's a better place to be I reckon as I become more dependant upon Him instead of some church bandage over my problems but never ever heals. There's a greater place now I find in being on the forum and seeking after God. I still think sometimes it would be easier to go back to church but what reward is there in that it would only serve to take me right back to the place where I use to be and no longer want to be.

I now discover far more riches in Christ than I ever knew before so I will keep on with that journey which brings lasting peace and joy and sets me free, why shackle myself up again. There are things I now discover in Christ that bring such wonderful joy to me so why wouldn't I want even more when you have a taste of what He offers. If the cost is high then so be it I know it sure is worth it when God reveals His truth to you.

I was too fake last time in church and it scares me to think I will be like that again when I see the changes in my own life from being out of the church but into fellowship with the true believers. It's so liberating that I don't care about the hardship. I just want to move on in His truth and become all I can be in Him. That's what real life is to me and it's worth the pain, it's only for a moment anyway.

Blessings to all

Rhys

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