Wow, only chez the mokbel's could everything go up in flames in the early morning. All over my four year old daughter spilling milk while I was upstairs brushing my teeth. My mother completely flipped out, no compassion or sympathy, my dad decide to join in no the bashing and then my youngest brother had only snarky comments to make like my parenting is terrible etc... I just exploded, lost all control. Completely gave into the carnal desire to yell back and get angry. Just a horrible morning all around. I mean.. it was like, "where were you?" "We had to clean YOUR daughter's mess up." "Why did you give her a cup without the lids? We buy the cups with lids for a reason" These were the NICE things that were said at yelling and shouting volume. Not to mention the nasty things that were said. Of course.. I gave in, called my mother a drunk , told her she should look in the mirror before pointing out the flaws of others. Etc... I mean... I let louse on my younger brother who said that I was a failure as a father by telling him he was a failure in life, multiple run ins with the law, arrests, felonies, drugs, not going to school or doing anything with his life etc...
Ugh. Why does it have to happen this way? I know the Lord planned it all too which just drives me crazy because I never wanted this morning to be this way... If its not the lust of the flesh its some other failure. Being human really stinks you know that guys?! Sigh.
Okay I just needed to rant.. yea I blew it this morning. My patience lasted a whole 3 minutes of yelling at berating me before I finally gave in.. :/ I guess 3 minutes is better than zero minutes. No I'm not an angel in the matter, like I said, I said things that were far from Christ like.
No need to reply to this, I'm just venting. Ranting. Family is so hard to get along with.