Hello Jeff i think Kat is spot on,
Hi Jeff, just wanted to mention something that might encourage you. It seems that God in preparing us by bringing us through certain trials that gives us the experience He will need us to have... each one with their own set of difficulties, making us into what He wants us to be. So I think that though you may be experiencing some great difficulty God is certainly with you to get you through it "...God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able..." (1 Cor 10:13). And just think, you will be uniquely qualified to help with that in the next age
15 years ago because of thyroid problems my body shut down i was so sick i can't tell you, i went from a bull to an old man over night,i would pray for God to take me every night and wake up in the morning and sit on the side of the bed and cry knowing i had to face another day,so after a few yrs. can't really remember how long, i started thinking where the teaching of hell come from and ended up here BT,i read 6 to 8 hrs. a day for months non stop, i think God put me where i needed to be at that time and with all that has happened i'm so thankful now,i'm not the same person i was,i've learned love,i love my wife as i never knew how before,i text my girls often and tell them i love them and to tell my grandboys i love them and to hug them for me,i under stand pain and suffering better now,it breaks my heart to see people hurting now,i feel CJ's pain,Judy's pain, i feel your pain,i pray for Alex,this wasn't me a few yrs. ago,my daughter ask her mom awhile back,whats going on with dad he's never had this kind of affection, she told her hes different now, thank God for that, i've got a long way to go i know, but now i don't want to die,i want to live ,i want to love,to me love is everything,i don't know you or CJ or Judy never met Alex or any one else here,but i can tell you this, i love you all,being sick has helped me to understand others pain and suffering,i'm still sick but not like before, i think it helps keep me humble,i know now i'm where God wants me to be for now,i think most of us are hurting one way or the other, but it will make us strong later,hang in there Brother God will see you through,i know because he said he would,you can take that to the bank.
Terry