Gyula:
God is causing me to undergo various trials, including health challenges and upcoming economic challenges for my family. I see things coming to a head shortly, in many different ways. In spite of these trials, the Father has been revealing to me, through Scripture and the testimony of others and my own experiences, His incredible joy that comes after these fiery trials, of pruning my carnal mind and continuing to endure, and also realizing that this joy will one day last FOREVERMORE! These trials are difficult, but He reminds me that they are a test! I experience great joy in worshipping The Father and The Son, usually afterwards. They cause me to talk to them quite a bit, and that is a blessing to "cast my cares upon Him, for He cares for us" (1 Peter 5:7). It is a source of great comfort and encouragement.
God has also caused me to consider and realize that I am at the very top of the "base things of the world, and things which are despised..." (1 Corinthians 1:28). I have been forgiven MUCH (Luke 7:47), and He recently has revealed that to me in a more concrete way. As a result, I am and will be forgiving others MUCH, which is and will be a very joyful experience, as God loves to show mercy! (Ephesians 2:4).
God is dealing with me on a lot of different levels, which involve both pain (our cross) and His "oil of gladness"! (Psalm 45:7 & Hebrews 1:9). He is so complex.
"O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out! (Romans 11:33)
I hope that helps you a little bit. We are His workmanship, and it's been quite a journey already. God Bless. Take care.
Dean