Ah my friend George, I understand the loneliness and suffering and the building of Character is all part of our walk with the Lord and I'm loving this journey. My faith grows stronger every day. My days and nights are filled with talking to the Lord about everything, I think sometimes He might say" My child, will you be still a little While". I think about Him even when I am talking to others,
And as soon as I wake in the morning, I say " good morning Lord, thank you for another day to tell you how much I Love you, and it begins. I watch very little TV but I love music, so, sometimes we dance. Reading has always been my favourite thing to do, I used to read many different books and magazines. Unimportant stuff. Now I only read scripture and BT. I pray and have my cries of anguish every night, every night. Then, He gives me peace and my mind goes to the same place
It has been going for the past year. To the ocean. Every time I am with the Lord in my mind, I am
About five years old. I recognize myself, dark curly hair, big round eyes, I am wearing a little white dress and I am barefoot. Jesus and I are sitting on a big log, my feet don't Even touch the sand.
I take His big hand in my two little hands and I see the bob boo on His hand. I kiss it and hold His hand to my cheek and look up at Him. I cannot see His face but I can feel His smile. Then we go skip rocks, I tell Him "look Lord, five skips and He says " I only got three" , I know He's letting me win. He picks up a rock and puts it in my hand, it's that little white stone, and He says" put that in your pocket for later."He starts walking ahead of me up the sand dunes and I try to keep up.
I put my little foot prints in His big ones, but it's tiring and I fall down sometimes so I call Out to Him, Jesus, Jesus, He turns, goes down on one knee and I run, He grabs me and picks me up,
I wrap my arms around His neck so tight and say to Him, " please don't ever leave me" and I kiss His cheek. He carries me up over the sand dunes and we disappear. This is my comforter
every night. Lately my little sister has been showing up on the beach, she is two in my dreams and sick so I take her by the hand and guide her to Jesus, my sister was born with polio. My dream ends now with my baby sister sitting on Jesus lap, I feel happy about that.
I know the trials and tribulations can be fierce, I know I will be chastised, I know I will be hurt and
He gave me armour for those times, I just have to remember to take it out of the closet and put it on and keep it on, but I take it off when I go to the ocean. I don't think God wants me to be sad
All the time, He says rejoice, don't worry about anything, that's really hard to do, but I'm giving it my all. George, come on now, cheer up, our Father is a King, I say that out loud all the time.
I have to tell you something funny, my husband and I were painting tonight and he mentioned
How the world was changing for the worse, I said" don't worry about it, God is in charge".
He said " Well He's not doing a very good job", and as soon as it came out of his mouth, the
Power went out and it went pitch black for about two seconds and came right back on, haha, I said
Thankyou Jesus and my husband just walked away shaking his head. Serves him right, talking about God like that. Anyway , as you can tell, I am in one of my talking moods tonight, consider yourself lucky, My Lord God puts up with this while trying to teach me. I think there was a reason
The nuns wouldn't let me go to church with the rest of the class. God Bless Gods children everywhere as He tucks them in every night. 🙏🏼 Pamela