I recall a time, i worked in a Mental hospital for adolescents. I was placed with a female co-worker on a suicide watch of a female patient. A 16 year old young attractive Intellectual Child, with Wisdom beyond her years had been molested by a family member. She felt like garbadge.
In one of our many conversations she knew she would have to eventualy get passed this situation/s and move on with Life. She expressed many times how she prayed to God to ease burden she would carry all her life mentally, especially if she would marry and have childern of her own, like she prayed and hoped.
On one of these occasions she asked if i would like to hear her present Anthem, to which i glady accepted and thanked her for, trusting me in sharing her Anthem.
Although she understood her suicide thoughts stemmed from her feelings sowed from her rape, she explained this song helped her vent with God, as she prayed for strength and guidance.
As i listend to this song i felt a revelation , vision was being open in my future life. it was eerie as a voice in my head kept kept drawing me in saying remember..... remember... .
During the rollover accident with Ford/Firestone tire, as i sat in that passaenger seat this song played in my mind so Amplified and soothing, it drowned the crunching of steel and breaking of glass. To this day i can remember the scene, but for the life of me cannot recall any sounds during the rollover.
As i struggled to open the door and both my brother and i fell out, i observed the wreackage and distance we rolled over. The song played on. I understand now what happend to me then, as i stood on the sandy foundation of my life's work, now wrecked in a heap both my truck and boat. I thanked God for not taking my brother's nor my life, and letting me live to see my boys grow, and find a closer relationship with God, i promised.
I never found out what became of the child, because of the injuries i sustained in the wreck i could no longer work at the Hospital, i was placed on light duty, clerical mostly. When my light duty time ran out i was on leave. When it was detremined i would not be able to perform my job much less anything as Physical. the only option i had was to resign my position, with a severly debt future ahead due to no work and bills piling on and a custody battle looming. I thank God for this life he gave to me instead of of giving me a sentence of death.
during this strife and down time in my life, i knew God alone carried me, as my Faith dwindle. It was at this time i found Bible-Truths, and an announcement over the national news of class action lawsuite on Ford /Firestone.
A major settlement was going to be coming our way, by but only through the Blessings of God.
Now when ever a set back occurs in my family's life, this haunting song will play in my Spirit. I strongly remind my family of the perils of the Strong Delusion (SPELL) we must all come out of and focus on God's will.
Just recently this occured just a couple of days ago as my older brother faced a cervical operation that could have left him paralyzed, God's blessing he came out fine and is doing very well in therapy and ponders now his new sustained eagerness to enjoy life more with God and his grandchildern.
I know and understand not all present trails and tribulations have happy endings, but they will and I will hope and pray each of us sustains to the end.
Enjoy the song........
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_t4nw165EAsEnya - I Want Tomorrow Lyrics
Dawn breaks; there is blue in the sky.
Your face before me
Though I don't know why.
Thoughts disappearing like tears from the Moon.
Waiting here, as I sit by the stone,
They came before me
Those men from the Sun.
Signs from the heavens say I am the one.
Now you're here, I can see your light,
this light that I must follow.
You, you may take my life away, so far away.
Now I know I must leave your spell
I want tomorrow.
Now you're here, I can see your light,
this light that I must follow.
You, you may take my life away, so far away.
Now I know I must leave your spell
I want tomorrow.
Peace and Understanding
Rodger