Wanda;
You can't make the wrong decision with this issue....you simply can not. One of the things that I learned thru Ray's teachings [not from his teachings] is that God is sovereign in his creation down to the smallest detail. Whatever decision you end up making is the one that you were supposed to make. There are not two or three options...there is only one. Before I came to know real bible truths this verse always stood out to me;
Rom 8:38-39 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
It was always like yeah, I know these things and believe it but I also knew that my sins separated me from God and when we sin God know longer hears us so in reality I believed that although none of the things mentioned in the verse can separate me yet I believed that I, myself was able to do that [old man, free will teaching]. I was in error. The decision that you make whatever that decision is, is the one you were supposed to make from the foundation of the world. Pray and do what gives you peace and then rest in that as what you were supposed to do.
There is one thing that a pastor of mine said 25 years ago although he was the head of a denominational church and whose teachings were full of error was,
Never doubt in the darkness what God has given you in the light.
Despite the error of his teachings yet I believe his counsel to be true with his statement.