My personal experience may or may not shed some light on this. I had come out of the church, that had so enslaved and brainwahed me, I could hardly think for myself anymore. I was admonished often, not to read any other religious material or I would be judged, and condemned an apostate. I was to be no part of the world, in ways that were impossible to adhere to. Now I find myself without God or friends, living in a world I'm no part of, and God let me stew in that a bit.
One day, out of the blue I thought of the movie, Passion of The Christ, this was 2015, the movie had been out for a long time, but I had never seen it. It wasn't allowed in my religion, but now I could consider it. I decided against it, because I knew the crusifiction scene would be to difficult for me to get through. However, thoughts of God the father's suffering crept in, and then the suffering Jesus endured. I questioned myself, how could I turn my back on the reality of that sacrifice, because I was weak and selfish. I also considered the possibility, not watching it might have more to do with keeping God at a distance in my life at that time.
I talked to God often about it, finally making a commitment to him, to watch it out of respect and gratitude, for the enormous sacrifice he had made for me.
The outcome was an explosive change within me. I understood for the first time in my life, the love of God. That's a Huge personal revelation in anyone's life. It was then I wanted to find and know this God, the God of love. No more man, deciding what I could read, watch or do, it would be between me and God, as it should be.
A few days later, I earnestly asked God to show me his truth, and within seconds I was reading Ray's teachings, and I continue to do so.
Was this God, using this oh so un-Godly means to awaken me?