Thank you Wanda for your testimony! So true!
The judgement we go throught goes way beyond simple corrections from time to time, it’s never « intersected » with moments of joy between moments of deep sadeness. This sadeness, as we live in a carnal mind and body, is always always there walking along with pure and profound love for God and the desire to please Him - makes me think of Jesus when He felt pity for the crowd that followed Him for He had this Will, God’s Will, to cure them- the source of joy is rightly that love you feel for God despite your own self. Yes, this love is not our own self-made love, God put it Inside us, we’re nothing (and too much things), we’re useless, God is Everything, Jesus is the One and Only way to conquer.
And even our accomplishments shouldn’t be considered as our own, Our Father gives us strenght and faith for it. We’re nothing. Nothing but children. We
must learn and grow up. It demands time, a lot of time, all our lives for say.
No acception, for nobody, we are all on the same level playing field. We are all judged exactly the same way. The elects judgement merely comes before the White Throne Judgment, that’s all. That’s Nothing. For the sufferance will come the same way for everybody, me, you, Hitler, the Hitler Inside of me and you.And the joy too.
Do we think we have the knowledge to see the signs of it all? Then we don’t have any knowledge. Do we think we are blessed for sure by God ? Then we may not be for sure. Do any of us think to know better ? Then he’ll be the last among the last ones.
God’s thoughts are not and absolutly not our thoughts. We live on earth, we are carnal, we do not live in facts in our resurrected spiritual bodies, we’ll probably for the lot of us die before the work of God in ourselves is accomplished. We can’t be sure for now of how profound and large and deep is God’s Love. We don’t merely have the Equipment for that. We must hang on to humility, and fear and faith. We must remember.
Remembering our fails, and remembering God’s promise of success. David reminds it in psalms.
I’m saying this while at this very moment I just wish to die physically for I am crossing (like all of you I HOPE) a real hard time, not the world’s like but
the one that can’t keep you from rejoicing and loving God more and more while crying your soul out For it is really really hard to let go of our false beliefs,
you know, the ones we are sure they’re not as bad as it is and we don‘t even think about it or question it, and in the same time, exactly the same time letting go of it all. How schizophrenic ! Longing to be finally one in Jesus as God is one.
Because , for now, we are the false prophets, and the earth trembling down and the signs in the sky and the jews Killing Jesus on the cross and the pitiful crowd and Jesus disciples and the thiefs and the liars and the 144000 and so on. You ken that most of liars don’t even realize they lie.
And God knows how hard it is to manage our lives and love and faith with all this. Miserable men we are as Paul said in Romans.
Thank You soo much Jesus. Thank You Thank You Thank You.