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HOW IS GOD LEADING/DRAGGING YOU?
Deborah-Leigh:
Hi Sean
I appreciate your request for clarification.....and yes I agree with you regarding your insight into how God works....but how's this for another experience......
You see, I did not want to go out of the Church I was in. I was hooked. I was a Cell leader and enjoying the shine! When I got pushed out, no less by the Pastor himself....I was devastated...isolated...rejected...and hurting! The whole Church turned on me in a most painful way..... I DID NOT WANT THAT! THAT WAS AGAINST MY WILL!....but it was according to God will to humble me.....and I thank God but it did hurt terribly!....
Very soon after that and on my birthday, I was given access to Ray's web! How is that for God's timing! and love. Woinderful don't you think. So..by Gods grace, God had me experience in a very real way, how he is the healer of the broken hearted! I have since been gradually enlightened by the truth I wasthen so very blind to see! I wonder how many others can relate to ....being thus dragged.... This was my experience and it was certainly God's gift to me from the start where a gift from God will and can not be denied!....I believe this as much as His word will not return to Him empty....so it was with me. I could not fight God and win. He paid for me....called me out and came and dragged me out because I was too blind to get out!
I beleive God did not want me to think I had done anything in myself to have come out of Babylon! I wanted, in my ignorance, nievety and self-dependence....to stay in collecting a false sence of right standing before God by bowing to man made systems, that appeared correct and righteous through thier regulations and rules.
I am very grateful to God for HIS mercy and HIS pleasure to take me out of the illusion and blind mindedness. I am so grateful for His touch on my eyes to see the real light of HIS Spirit that is not religious at all.....He is helping me recover from a near fatal attack of the disease of Religion!
This experience shows how God over ruled my ignorance and illusion that I found comfortable and even enjoyable in my gross self reliance on others who presented themselves as God's spokespersons. False Prophets! Damnable Heresy!...I believed it!..tried to join it and failed thanks to GOD!
I am grateful and so very grateful now after the pain of extracting me out of a seductive and false deceptive system to put me where I am today....knowing HIM better, loving and learning from HIM through HIS called out ones! and through the grace and mercy of His Spirit of Truth and love...
Hope this explains why I can relate to that word Dragged. I was dragged!.....
Arcturas :)
mongoose:
What a wonderful thread. So many posts here that are very uplifting. I do think sometimes that we walk this road alone and I've been thinking about that a lot over the weekend. No matter how many people I am around, I always feel somewhat alone...even with very close friends and people I love very dearly...even here at the forum. It was really apparent this weekend and I managed some time by myself to think about it. I realize that there are experiences I've had in my life that cause me to be this way, to not form really close attachments like a lot of people seem to do. And I think God is slowly healing some of those wounds lately. But, I wonder if God doesn't keep me a little bit alone so that I will turn primarily to Him for comfort and acceptance and love. I think if I were allowed to have people around and not feel even some alone with them, I would turn to those people for support and not to God. Don't get me wrong, I do get some from other people, especially my wonderful husband, but it just isn't the same. When He keeps me like this, I turn to Him for the love and support and comfort I need, and if I ask for a person to get this from I keep getting told that He is sufficient to fill all my needs. And He does. I can't believe how good God has been to me and I am so grateful. I sometimes still wish this wasn't such a lonely road so much of the time. I get tired of being 'different' and 'strange'. But when I get out alone where I can be quiet and listen and talk with God, I know there is nothing else anywhere that I want more than to be with Him like that always...and then the world intrudes and, sigh, it's back to life. But I so look forward to the next time I can drop everything to just be alone with Him. Anyway, this is the thought I had as I contemplated this over the weekend. As for your question Arcturus, I read the bible from time to time and the posts on the site...but I more go off alone and just sit and think and talk with God.
Oh, and I love what you said Gary about the preachers chucking you out the door when you told them of your experience. Isn't it amazing how something so wonderful and clearly from God is labeled as "demon possession" or mental illness? It cracks me up...and yet it's so sad that they can't see. Ahh, this too will be healed one day. ;D
Love to all in Christ,
mongoose
Rene:
Hi Arcturus,
I just wanted to add that my walk with Christ has been both joyful and painful. The joy comes from being blessed with spiritual sight and the freedom that comes along with that. Also, there is the joy of getting to know our Lord and Savior and coming to understand what true LOVE is. I pray every day that the Lord will bless me with the fruits of His Spirit so that I can glorify Him that day. Joy is a fruit of the spirit.
The pain comes as the Lord continues to show me who I truly am. There is that carnel side of me that sins as easily as breathing. It is painful to see that I am no better than any other sinner in this world. It is only through Christ in me am I able to walk straight. The Lord has chosen me to be judged and chasten by Him at this time and this fact alone is sufficient enough for me to REJOICE!
May the Lord's peace, mercy and grace be with you.
Rene'
longhorn:
By the nape of my neck, or least it feels that way.
Love in Christ
Longhorn
Deborah-Leigh:
Hi Mongoose
"I wonder if God doesn't keep me a little bit alone so that I will turn primarily to Him for comfort and acceptance and love. "...
1Cor 2:2 For I resolved to know NOTHING, to be acquainted with NOTHING, to make a display of the knowledge of NOTHING, and to be conscious of NOTHING among you except Jesus Christ, the Messiah and Him crucified.
I believe, Mongoose that you are on to something quite wonderful in your thinking that God is keeping you alone so you will turn primarily to Him for comfort.....
What has comforted me in this thred is that I have found that there are people (therefore it is not unusual, wrong or not to be expeced )who are well on this path of solitude with Christ and have accepted that this walk is or "has been for the most part a walk of solitude" quoting Gary in this thred. For me, that acknowledgement is a beacon of light and the Scriptures backs it up as Jesus showed in His life that He Himself went alone to be alone with God. He knew what to do....I am still learning and I am so greatful....
Arcturus :)
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