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I don't know what's wrong with me
Robin:
Sorin,
If I had to live my 20's over again I don't think I would survive it. God used to shower me with love in the beginning and then the lessons started getting harder and the way he manifested his presence changed in my life. He started teaching me to walk by faith and not by sight. He started changing my desires. It was a painful process and still is. He is not going to allow any desire that is not of him to remain.
Mark 12:30
And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.
I remember it getting so hard once that I just shouted out "Stop staring at me!" It was 10 years after that before I felt his presence again. I knew for sure I had committed the unforgivable sin. I felt like he abandoned me and I was doomed for what I said to him. He did not abandon me. It was all in his plan. During that time I held onto everything I believed by a string. It was a very hard lesson in faith.
Ray said we choose from our desires and we can't change what we desire. I couldn't change my desires that lead me into sin, but God could and he did and he is still working on it. He will drag you. I went kicking and screaming. I am the most stubborn person I know. I pray often the God forgives me of the sins of my youth when my desires and my sin were in opposition to the will of God in my life. There was a time when I wasn't aware of it and then there was a time when I was aware and couldn't change it. He just kept dragging.
John 10
27My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:
28And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.
29My Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father's hand.
Philippians 1
6Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:
iris:
M.G. That was a really great post.
Thank you for sharing... :)
Iris
gmik:
Sorin, when you are 46 or 56 and say I have nothing to show for it, then maybe ....... but not when you are 26!!!! What should you be showing at 26?? Think about what you are able to change in your life and then think about what you can't. Start working on what yu can change--job, schooling, moving, choices of hobbies or ways you spend your time, etc.
What you can't change leave that to God. I know you have prayed for guidance and such but you have to do something as well.
My 26 year old is living at home and going to our community college. He isn't dating and his best friend is married w/ 2 kids, so he doesn't go out much. He seems happy and is just thinking of his future, not right now. (Mostly he plays World of Warcraft.)
I am just saying, many of your posts you seem so hard on yourself. KNOW KNOW KNOW that God LOVES you and NO NO NO you haven't committed the unpardonable sin(I don't think that is possible).
Just because you think what will bring you JOY isn't in your life RIGHT NOW doesn't mean that it won't be--sooner or later. Get close to Jesus, read the Word and obey it!!! It says to think on GOOD THINGS....so DO it!! TRUST HIM and mean it.
Said lovingly as a mom to you,
gena
Sorin:
--- Quote from: iris on February 18, 2007, 08:40:32 PM ---M.G. That was a really great post.
Thank you for sharing... :)
Iris
--- End quote ---
I agree with what Iris said. And M.G. I can relate to what you were saying.
Gena, thanks for the encouraging words.
God Bless,
Sorin
Deborah-Leigh:
Gena
you can be my mom any day! ;D
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