I know exactly how you feel Sorin. I'm going back to work today. I had been terribly depressed. The beast from within shows his ugly head at times with me also. I had a problem with womanizing in the past. I've been clean for about three years oops I stand corrected, my wife (unceremonized) just corrected me and as said, it's been a little more than three years. She forgave me completely, and that was the love I needed. I believe it's THE LOVE (GOD'S LOVE) that I needed to overcome. That beast still tries to show his ugly head and it can be excruciating because I want and see my self at times wanting to give in to the temptation and vicariously at times, i do. But I know the shepherd that said, be still, alleluia!!! Mark 4:39 - And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. I hate that beast, he knows how to at times to get me in fear, disbelief, and doubt. I believe in accordance to THE WORD, that's where the problem lies (in the fear, disbelief, doubt, shame, guilt). 2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. Hebrews 4:16 - Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.