I just discovered his writtings a couple months ago.
I had been searching for the truth and wondering why I just couldn't bring myself to go to any church anymore.
I had been so disappointed in church it seemed so superficial I felt like I just didn't belong anywhere well anyway...
I had been wondering why I seem to be judging myself daily.
I told a relative about my struggles, she said was there anything good I said no not really, she said well you know where that came from then.
She said Satan is trying to make you feel worthless, I didn't argue with her but knew I was being judged and it was right.
There was one day I acted up in front of my daughter by a curse word *my daughter is grown* I felt so bad for doing this I felt like such a failure because her and I had been talking how God was working in our lives.
I tell you that was the weirdest thing the curse word just came out and to be honest I was more shocked than she was.
This is what really made me realize God was showing me things by my worthless feelings.
The good part it didn't last he got his message to me through my bad actions.
My first post here was something about this and all my failures, It really was good to hear we do go through rough times for our own good.
It was humbling and to feel humble and worthless for a short while helped me realize I am going to be ok.
I am greatful for that and for Ray's writtings and this board it is helping me get to where I need to go on this journey.
I am not saying it is easy my husband can be so uncaring and for years I prayed Lord can you change him to be more loving.
He is not a bad person though just cold and aloof I knew this when I married him he is very responsible but cold...Lol
Anyway through all of this and there is so much more God is showing me I am where I am supposed to be at this time.
I am so grateful God is teaching me to learn through all of this, So Ray's teaching has been a lifeline to me.
I don't follow Ray but I know what he is teaching finally explains all of my why God why why?
I am learning through his teachings I am grateful for that and most I am grateful that God saw fit to reveal a bit of truth.
I say a bit because I don't always see right away.
If I have been wrong on anything I have said about learning from my faults please correct me...I really finally am teachable. I think.