Hi John,
Thank you for the testimony, I know how you feel Brother.
I still have scores if not over a hundred "Books of Babylon" in my personal library, there have been times when I want to just chuck them in the garbage or burn them but that day has yet to come. The sentiment you describe sounds exactly how I feel when I open one of these books to see where I was, what I used to hold true and all the confusion that was once my "faith."
The picture these books paint of our Lord and the Father make God appear impotent, weak, mean spirited and flawed, unable to complete or do His own will. We know this is not true.
I must admit I am incredulous that anyone can begin to know the true Living God who is Love personified and are able to sit through a sermon that claims the very opposite. Burning in hell for eternity for not tithing or not making an alter call or for not knowing His name in this lifetime is now unbearable reading or listening to.
For those who have not yet been introduced to or have their eyes opened to the infinite gift that is Christ I do have much empathy, I was there as well, but those who know and still worship in Babylon confound me to some degree. I say some degree knowing full well it is a decision of convenience.
His Peace to you John,
Joe