Hi Diana,
Its funny you should make the comment about chronological order. I started on Hell -- read Part A and it was WOW....I couldn't continue for a couple days, then got busy with the weekend and work week starting but I sure was meditating on much of what I read. So what do I read today? Part A of the Myth of Free Will. LOL
What's funny is that I was "passing over" that part because I figured I had that down ok. WRONG
Just reading the first part was amazing. Especially the part about Adam and Eve and that Eve actually sinned BEFORE she ate the fruit (lust/coveting). WOW ... and the part where Ray asked "why did Adam sin too if he wasn't deceived (as Eve was)" and then he made the statement that Adam loved his wife so much (our exceedingly weak heart) he was willing to die for her (as in wages of sin is death) and Ray sort of drew the parallel of it being - much like Christ died for His bride. WOW Made me verbally gulp (if that makes any sense).
Am I going to survive all this? LOL I know I will but its one thing built on another and another and the feeling of.....can't even think of the right word to be honest. Its just this feeling of thankfulness, but more of humility. How little I knew, how little I paid attention. I know that there was a reason these truths didn't come to me until I was 48 years old but I still keep thinking that somehow I was lazy in my search. But really, I know he was feeding me a little at a time, in preparation for BIGGER THINGS
I think I'm just breaking through to bigger things now and WOW
Ok, sorry for rambling, but you all know this feeling I'm having. I try to convey it to my husband and sister but they just don't get it. They nod their heads and say "that's nice Dawn" arghhhhhhhhhhhh
lol I feel giddy, is that spiritual? lol Ok I'm done for now...