Hi all,
I have been reading on bible truths.com for about 4-5 years. I've read and studied most of the articals 2 or 3 times and always find more treasures I just never saw the first time.
When I first found the site it was through my mother inlaw who found it very interesting but had some issues with it since she and I were "christians". She new my struggles with the popular doctrine of Christianity and she herself had issues as well. I left church and any study for (funny how it was this many) exactly 7 years at which point God had pointed me to Rays site. At first I was in search of any flaw in the teaching but began realizing I wasnt finding any. I studied till my eyes dried out every day cross referencing over and over with excitment. I spent a good 2 years straight with my nose in my monitor. God had surely grabbed hold of me.
I had left the church 7 years before I found Rays site after praying and telling God there was no way I can continue studying his word after witnessing the mass deception merely in fundimental beliefs and questioned the whole concept of hell and eternal torment. There was just something not right with it all.
One of my biggest issues with eternal death was that truely it would be better to be born before Christ lived. I say this because Christian doctrine teaches that while Christ was in the grave He went and preached to all the dead and lead them out of captivity. Now if He did this for those who lived before He came to the earth, what of those who live after He was crucified? Did they just fall on the wrong side of the coin so, too bad!!!?
With this in mind I struggled with God being just and fair, balanced. So as you can see I had to say to God what I did. "I will not study and I will not go to church until you (God) show me the true path, the absolute truth of your word, not The divided denominationalism I have witness up until now."
After finally studying everything on the site I came to the conclusion this was it, this was the truth. While coming to this conclusion I went through the most humbling experience of my life as probably most of you did as well. I was firm in what I believed I was even prideful of all that I learned and studied, I could out quote out teach most of the pastors I was under. That is why I was completely humbled and ashamed. I spent the next 6-8 months madder than HE- double hockey sticks . Mad at the fact I was lied to for such a huge part of my life. Living and teaching these lies for over 20 years.
God removed that anger from me. About a year and a half ago I found myself in that same wilderness again not knowing what to do with what I had recieved. I again looked to God and said "let your will be done Lord, I dont know what to do with this. I found myself on debate forums depating myself into an early grave so to speak. I soon found that there was no point in debating with those who have not or will not recieve the truth. I have binders and binders of my debates I printed out. Theres alot of good stuff in there but I truly know what casting your pearls before the swine is now.
Anyways, now I find myself here in this forum desiring to grow more now that I actually have fellowship with like minded brothers and sisters. I am so greatful for this forum, you shall hear more input and probably a thousand times more questions from me.
If you actually read this long post I hope my testimony helps another in some way.
God bless all,
Dave