I am in a process of being called out of the church I am in. As much as I desire to just walk away I have found myself compelled not to do so and to tell the leaders of the area that I am serving the reason. Not with the intent of arguing or trying to convince them, just a point to fact explaination of why. Even though it is babylon I am responsible for things that no one else has been trained to do so I do not want to leave them hanging.
I believe the holy spirit wants my departure to be in love and truth even though it might be justified to just stop going because it is babylon.
I think I have been shown at least a glimpse of what it is really like to give up ones self. I honestly hate being there and it would please "ME" very much to just stop showing up. But I have been led to share my beliefs and direction as the reason I am leaving rather than voicing my opinion till they have had enough and throw me out. At this point now, they could allow me to stay to teach a replacment or just ask me to go ahead and not come anymore.
But I got to thinking about some of the exchanges I have already have had and no one is trying to correct me with scripture.
One said that I am being lied to by the enemy, ok, thats always possible and we all have to deal with that.
Then he said I can overcome that lie and said "you know what it takes?" He then said "It takes a heart to follow God so that you can ask HIM to change your heart" And I have to make the willful decision to change.
Now, I do not want to bad mouth the person who said that. I am pointing that contradiction out because I used to say those very words to people. After hearing them from someone else I realized why I myself did not notice this glaring contradiction at one time. It was because I wanted to be the one that took credit for the change of heart and God would respond to my greatness.
I find it fascinating that God intended for me to be so self serving so later I could recognize it and understand a greater depth in scripture.
So here is a case where now, I am glad I have been in babylon and look forward to where God takes me next.