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carol v:
I am sorry that you keep having to go through this stuff with the homeschoolers Susan but count yourself blessed!  It is hard sometimes to feel quite so separate and "peculiar" but somehow learning several years ago that being "peculiar" is a great thing has been the most comfort to me. I, too, have spent an entire lifetime being on the outside of every group. The only thing that changed was my reaction to it. I've gone from tears of sorrow to tears of joy.

For whatever His reasons, it seems that being separate is a common theme around here.

Love ya girlfriend

hebrewroots98:
I agree Carol, I seem too have always ended up being on the outside of every group as well ...groups such as my family, churches, neighbors, social groups, homeschool groups...just to name a few!  You would think that I would learn by now to not let it bother me, but, some tribulations are easier than others for me to get through...but, being ignored like I was a nobody to them just gets to my flesh sometimes!  The Lord is still growing me up... ;) 

Deborah-Leigh:
I am not a home school-er Mom and I too have perceived rejection from other Mom's but actually Susan, do you know what it REALLY IS? No REALLY! Do you know what this rejection REALLY IS?  ;D

It is their FEAR!  They are in prison TOGETHER.

Just last week I was sitting at a sports day event. I know by now to sit alone. I am okay with that. Really okay.  I do not sit at a distance to anyone but just where I am comfortable if you know what I mean. At the end of the day all the Moms had very quietly gathered around me and were sharing their stories and sandwitches. I still was OUT OF IT. When they "included" me in their drama show conversations I realised that they have NO CLUE...that their conversation is like food torn out of a magazine. It appears good only but is paper to the gut and tasteless to the mouth. These poor lost souls! Oh I pity them so!

Even as they sat next to me they weren't even close! Their fear and confusion is stoked only by what we know is true and Who we know is LOVE.

I think that on this unusual occasion that they gathered around me, is because I am learning to become invisible ;D

Peace to you sisters

Arc. :)

hebrewroots98:
No doubt Arc, you are so right!  They absolutey are in their collective prison together and of that I want no part of.  I too have pitied them and have tried to love them regardless, but they don't want any part of me, until of course there is no one else around them to support their hypocritical ways and then they will resort to talking to me.  Of course I do not trust them...but I will speak to them in hopes of showing love to them...but it is trying on my part.  My flesh really wants to tell them how hypocritical they are toward me but I doubt that I should.  

I know this happens to all of us here, both men and women here have their times  to endure this treatment from others whom we had once had good relationships with at one time...

AHHH, truly I am blessed Arc to be in this position...I just need reminded sometimes...I just wish that there was someone in my town that could be here in the unity of spirit with me...

Blessings!

Deborah-Leigh:
I know what you mean Susan.

Having a "human" friend in unity of Spirit is a blessing. I have just recently been given such a friend and she is studying and appreciating the teachings by Ray. We do not study together and she works entirely at her own pace.

Our friendship began with her passing some teachings on to me and I was able to show her acceptance of where they were correct and a new way of seeing where they were in error. This opened up the occasion where I could lend her some teachings appropriate to her conversations with me at the time.

She now knows that I believe and adhere to the teachings here in BT and that there are some teachings that she has not yet seen or grasped. She is okay with that and so am I. She knows I have brethren here who are near and dear to me.  She is new in this area but is doing so fine in her progression to learning and understanding. Today and seemingly out of the blue she said... "RAY SMITH says...."

It was like WOW! Someone else knows RAY SMITH! You could blow me over with a feather! It is wonderful to hear someone else talking about Ray Smith instead of my own voice all the time!

 I can say this Susan....I have needed to study what is here in BT because the first thing that happened between me and my new friend was....questions questions questions....Not having the answers could have blown away any hope of fellowship!...So keep studying...keep on learning and thinking of ways to answer questions that can come out of new formed fellowships that may last for more than a day or may simply only cross your path leaving meaning and joy....

What becomes even more important is LIVING the truths we find in our trials and circumstances and not only referring to the Truths as some academic formula for passing the time! Now that is the real deal...living it!

Peace to you sister

Arcturus :)

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