You know, I never said anything about my situation when I first join this forum as far as my survival is concerned. You see, I had lost my job because of lack of work back in March of this year. I’m not alone in my situation because many of us Americans lost our jobs in the first part of the year and thorough out the year.
It’s why I had so much time to read Ray’s papers as well as spend time here in this forum. I was twenty three years of age when I purchased my first home which I still live in. Needles to say, because of the economy there are not many Jobs out there for a guy like me.
I never went to college, I cannot even say I had the mentality for college….LOL. Nothing like and honest Joe in this world we all live in. After a few months of being laid off from work and knowing no one is hiring for work I became somewhat nervous, you know it’s a possibility I could loose my home like so many other Americans too and become homeless.
I hear the average poor person in this country has one car and three TV’s and a couple of air conditioners in their home. What a contrast to poor people in other countries who have not these things, in fact many of them die of starvation from what I read and see on TV.
I have no pride left in me, shame, what is that, I don’t care what becomes of me. Let my heart stop, let me die, I don’t care. Comfort zone, tell me, what is that I have forgotten. I asked God saying what is you’re intentions for me? Shall my neighbors watch me loose my home? Shall they watch me loose everything I ever work for?
My unemployment checks are at there end, now what. It’s kind of freaky to me in some ways you know, what do I do with all my possessions, do I just leave them behind or do I try to sell them?
I’m a tradesman, but no one is hiring. What’s my faith, what’s going to happen to me? Don’t answer I don’t care, like I said, let my heart stop, let me die, what’s wrong with taking the easy way out? After all I know I will eventually be saved. Does it matter? There is no hell, I found the comfort I was seeking. My life long fear has disappeared.
God is good, there is not a single person on earth I would believe if they told me God is not good. God has comforted me in the evening of my life. I’m tired anyways and could use a good night sleep………..LOL….see you in a billions years from now.
I know inwardly there is still hope for even the creature was subjected in hope. There is always hope. Things are getting interesting for me but I don’t know what tomorrow holds in store for me.
Heavenly Father, let you’re will be done Amen. Richard, one of you’re many sons.