I truly sympathise with your situation. Life can be so unfair. And you're right. It really stinks that you have gone through this your entire life. But be glad that you know truths of God that very few people know. Personally, I don't know how I got through my earlier years not knowing what I know now. I too, have felt that I was dealt the short stick in life. I seem to learn everything the hard way. It takes me more time to catch on to things than those around me. And now I keep forgetting where I put things. This isn't about me so I'll cut this part short. But because you know these truths of the Creator, just ask God to lead the way. Make life simple and keep running the race. Find a suitable job, and if it is difficult, just ask God to walk you (or run you) through it.
Thanks musicman, you're experience sounds pretty similar to my own.
You're right about being glad about being greatfull for knowing these truths of God.
It really does help to remember that most of the world is completely oblivious to that which is actually occurring in the spirit world, whilst you are one of a very few who is being given the truth and being prepared to rule with Christ.
I do not have any skills such as trades etc. I have nothing that would be considered of any use, but I like you have spent hundreds, probably thousands of hours practicing my instrument since my early teens determined that I was going to make music my career, but no matter what I did God seemed to be right there to sabotage it!
I now understand why, because it was and is all vanity.
I was not doing it for any Godly purpose, but to make a name for myself in the world!
If I had been allowed to make a name for myself, I almost certainly wouldn't be in the race which is an infinitely more worthy calling.
Music stars are a dime a dozen but the elect of God a very very few and far between.
While this all very well and good, it does leave Me between a rock and a very hard place.
to everyone else who responded to my cry of distress, a very big and sincere thankyou!
Last night I was so very very low and you don't know how much it really helps and means to have people say that they care and that they are praying for you.
Once again a very big thankyou!
P.S.
musicman, I also have a very bad time with putting stuff down and forgetting where I put it.
Maybe it's a musician thing!