Sorin,
I completely understand your issue right now. I could go further with you about that in PM's...totally up to you...if you wish to talk or vent, I am here.
I would however like to point out one thing. I want you to google "Malachai (Malachi) York". The poster that is turning you off so much reminds me very much of "Malachai York". I have a copy of "The Egyptian Book of the Dead" that is translated by "Malachai York".
In fact, though I now live in Athens, GA I used to live in Milledgeville, GA and had enough interactions with his "followers".
I understand that you're having trials right now, but all that I ask is that you consider the source. Are you trials directly from God, or from the adversary instead? I read the posts. They angered me. I got to them late so I couldn't get in there and that's just God's will.
I will break it down to this bro....don't just give up. Convalesce, heal up, take care of you. You have enemies all around you. They will mix lies with the truth. They will attack you emotionally. They will appeal to your basest emotions all in order to lead you astray. I know this....I was lead astray. Even now I fight it.
I'm not perfect man. I screw up constantly, but all I really have is Christ. Eveyone else will always leave me to burn.
Your true strength is not found in disdain, but rather the honest smile you give in return to that disdain.
Or better yet...
The true measure of power is not what you CAN do, but what you choose not to do because YOU DON'T HAVE TO.
God could destroy it all with a simple blink. Yet God chooses not to, and that is the true measure of power.
I am asking you, Sorin, though I know you're hurting and frustrating....don't blink. You're better than that. I know it, so many others here know that. Don't let one blind, misled child lead you astray. Stay the path.
According to Christ, is it better to let that one sheep go astray? What if you're speaking to a messenger? Stay the path. Drink the cup. Be faithful. Yes at times it sucks, but honestly...what is better here where we are in this flesh?
Sorin, I know you don't know me, and I know you're frustrated...I was angered to by that person's posts, but you have to let that anger go. Anger, desperation, and emptiness will serve you nothing now. It may have once before, but not now. It may have lead you to Christ, but maybe you should be trying to ask Christ questions now.
I'm sorry for carrying on, but I could tell in that thread that you were being rubbed "off".
Mat 24:4 And Jesus answered and said unto them,
Take heed that no man deceive you.
Mat 24:5 For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.
Mat 24:6 And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.
Mat 24:7 For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
Mat 24:8 All these are the beginning of sorrows.
These things MUST COME TO PASS. The wars are not outside of you, they are within.
Mat 24:9 Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and
ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake. Mat 24:10 And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
Mat 24:11 And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.
Mat 24:12
And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.
Mat 24:13 But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.
Keep enduring, Sorin, even if you must leave
. No matter what though, always keep Christ with you if it be the Father's will and remember that you have a home should you need to search out further...I outta know...been there, done that