Scrybe-
My beliefs have been challenged more here than anywhere else....I've been digging deeper into the Word more than I have ever done before coming to B.T....its a good thing that no one knows how much paper and ink I've used up at home copying all of Ray's material so that my husband and I could sit up late into the night reading all of this....we began our journey about a year ago, taking notes, reading, debating with our Bible Study group, "loudly discussing" Ray's ideas and the scripture into the wee hours, waking up the kids, waking up the neighbors sometimes...lol...anyway...for what its worth I have 2 problem areas as well:
(1) God seems to be putting me in a position that is leading me right back into Babylon....at least back into a position where I MUST deal with those who are convinced that I am a heretic!...and I am afraid, to be honest. I don't want to deal with them....they will hate me and persecute me and I don't know how much pressure I am able to take from them.....but God loves them and I believe He may be loving them through me by putting me in a position to pass on this infectious "questioning" attitude...I believe Jesus called it "seeking and knocking!" In the end...I reject the "city of Babylon" the system, the doctrines, but not those souls in the system, who like me, are being called out of Babylon.
(2) And secondly....I have some hard questions about monsters that molest children and how that could possibly pre-ordained by God. I can't get past that one...the whole free-will thing makes perfect sense to me when I go to bed at night.... and then I wake up with questions about "monsters." And I must say that I still don't believe that ALL is of God, at least, in my heart and I have tried and tried to reconcile it with Ray's teachings but cannot yet see it! Still, I take what I can accept and continue to question and study and learn. Like you, the bottom line with me is this: to know the truth! And certainly, these teachings make far more sense to me than anything else that I have discovered or been taught.
joyful1