Ive always found it is hard to fit in,either a church group,forum,home meetings what ever the group its always been hard to feel like I belong,I started off studying with the Jahova's witnesses about 30 years ago which started me on a life of not fitting in,in a couple of months I'll be fifty years old and I still feel that way,the only real family I have is my thirteen year old dauther,and she has told me she feels the same way we live in a small town and the kids at school have always treated her like an out cast,its really hard to take when your child comes home haveing all she can take with the treatment she gets,the other kids tell her she is a freak,geek,she said once she sat down at the table with the kids in her class and they all got up and move to another table,it broke my heart when she told me that and I feel helpless,Its mostly because of our religeous beleifs that she is treated that way I try to make up for it the best I can by showing her lots of love and telling her they are the ones with the problem.Makes me wonder about the kids in Jesus day because he said unless you become like little children you will not enter in his kingdom.Kids are crule to other kids they can be cold and down right mean,kids must have been differant in His day.But grown ups are no differant they're just sneeky about it.I have completly given up on groups,when groups get together sometimes they can act just like those children in my daughters school,I thought a time or two about going to a church like some of the other members to this site has done,but I would just feel like a phoney, I knew when others found out that I beleaved defferant than they did,I would get the look,and the treatment for beleaving differant,and Ive seen enough coruption in churches by the very people that founded them,that I want absolutly nothing to do with organized religeon,I dont trust men not any man,man only wants to be lifted up and praised and beleave you me there are plenty of people looking for people to stroke someones ego.I wonder and ponder often why does God want me to live such a life of exile,my walk has been a lonly walk ecept for one freind in the church..............