Kat,
You said: " That is really tough, that it is harder for you to learn this truth than norm "
That seems to be like it makes sense, but NO... It made it sooo much more clearer and easier for me.
Ofcourse not the whole memory part of it all, but the evidence of Gods plans to have my whole life change completely. Everything that I've read here did'nt seem new to me, it just showed to me that
the crazy thoughts I had finally made sense.
K " Well the thing of being laughed at, that sounds like just another form of persecution I would think "
Good way to think Kat. After each laugh/giggle/pfff or whatever, it was just what I expected.
It's never anything new or different. Most of the time it's obvious that their reaction to my claims
are an act. It's their form of defense. One laughs, to give the signal for the rest of the group to join in.
K " I don't try to talk to people that are not interested in hearing this truth (Matt. 7:6) "
Now, too bad I did'nt learn that one wayyy back. But then again, It's all about HIS timing.
I tried so hard to stay close to my Brothers that went to different Temples of Lies. And at the same time, tried to stay connected with my Brothers of the Temples of Boom(Weed Heads)
I kept trying to show love and building with them, but they slowly got worse and worse...
Losing respect of all Family, Friendship, Eachother and Anyone else.(9 year battle)
So I learned that it's clear, to get the "GOOD NEWS" into the Lost, Believers minds.
Like Jesus at the Temples. I've heard Pastors talk about Jesus Preaching in the Temples like he was part
of the scheduled service.
K " (1 Peter 3:15) "
I've got loads of stories of where I was lead to end up speaking to "Believers "
But always ended up the same way. I've stepped back now, even though at times it feels like I'm not
doing what I should be doing... You probably did'nt get that. If I ever see ya, you'll know.
K " Well God has given you this difficult life experience "
It did seem that way and at time still does, but because I can't get a decent job, Lost all connections,
live off of Social Security Disability, and have a hard time gaining respect from anyone, I have ALLLLLLL
the time I need to PRAY, STUDY/READ, WRITE, GIVE THANKS, RE-READ, RE-WRITE, PLAN, SEARCH,
RE-SEARCH and you get the idea...
So in other words, My FATHER has completely cleaned my entire agenda just to FOCUS on HIM!!!
Thank you for your Prayers. Let me just tell you, I prayed for you ALL quite a while back.
Now I've finally found you.
P.s. When I said, " Everything that I've read here did'nt seem new to me "
I don't mean that I knew everything already, it means nothing is a real shock to me. It all fits.
Now, the God of the O.T. was kind of a Mind Bomb, but makes so much more sense.
P.s.s I was one of the many Pre-Baptised, Record playing, no choice in the decision CATHOLICs.
But know when I look back (I still have good long-term memory) it seems that God/Jesus
always gave me the idea of......
I'll wait for another time on that one. Not know...