Youre not alone in this, I too feel this way but we all need to remember whatever happens, big or small, signficiant or insignifcant, it's not for a useless purpose but for a greater purpose, and the greater good for mankind. for our own benefit. I sometime wonder why God created me, I sometime feel so useless, and wonder what my purpose is on earth. I have so many questions that I'd like answered, but i need to remember God created me because he wants me to be part of the family and that's a honor that everyone who God creates gets, sooner or later. That means we are good in God's eyes, just not likewise in his image yet, at this current time. that's a honor to be chosen and created. WE are currently changing, to have GOd's character, his mind state, his righteousness, become part of us, it's a process and it takes time, not something that happens overnight, like any virtues, like patience, love, goodness etc, it all takes time. God is working with you right now. Pray for God's guidance in this and give you the gifts of love, patience, and kindess, and all that reflect God's character, his never-ending, non conditional love, Be the Love itself should be our goal because God is love.
Lacey