Hi Everyone, I certainly loved to control situations. When, I had my what could had been a deadly out come, I had a lesson taught to me. I had a fever of 109 and 107 for several days. Had to wait 48 hours for a culture to let them know what would cure the blood stream infection.
I believe God did not want me to go unconscious so I could learn this less. It was as if he said, Now, what can you do about this. You are always trying to do my job. What are you going to do now? I said, to him in prayer well Lord it is all up to you. This, was before I found Rays website. Well, he showed me one I needed to lear patience and two its all up to him, and I don't have anyting in the matter. I now, belive this experience helped me to read Rays papers and except them. So, it was all Gods doing.
Now, when I feel that wanting to control come up I bite my tongue. You know, I even had anxiety about ones going through the fire . Joe, and Rodger and Indiana Bob helped to show me I had anxiety for the lost. That, came from always people telling you they have to get saved and not knowing how hard that is. Not a short prayer. Now, I know that it is like the fire we are going through here. I mean when you are new to all this all kinds of things come flying at your spirit. All, I can say I saw more growth in me then I had seen for years. Now, I try and have patience waiting on him cause it all depends on him.
We can't force people to grow faster then God allows us. So, we have to be patient with him and patient with those who are not grown in areas like others. I know and trust my Lord will show me my sins and areas of growth I need. If, when he shows it and we repent he is patienct to help us overcome. Thats, why we are learning to be like him. If, we don't have him put his traits in us how can we even be choosen. How and when is all his. Patience , longsuffering with all is what we need to learn.