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Deborah-Leigh:

I am so far from who I believe You want me to be.

Here this man, claiming that I owe him R50 and I did not. I checked. I did the till balance and there was not R50 over in the till had he, as he claimed, paid with R100.  The Police asked why people expect them to do miracles. What are my rights? I asked. I pointed out the man refused to leave the shop and demanded money from my till. The Police wanted me to back down. They did not even take ID of the person I complained about. Lord You were there. I was being harassed and the person did not leave the shop even under the request from the Police they still came into the shop to try to leverage out of me a R50 note that was not theirs. You heard me Lord. I said to the man, have nothing of yours, get out of my shop. I have nothing of yours…GET OUT OF MY SHOP. He refused point blank asking me if I thought he was dishonest but threatening that I did not want to see him get angry.

Oh Lord. What was I supposed to do? I sat down, told him he could do what he liked. Mistake number one. I told him he could stand there all day and loose his job. Mistake number two. I panicked. I called the security who refused point blank to escort him out of the shop. Instead he decided to bring the commotion into the shop with gathering on lookers watching for the fun of it. Oh Lord, what was I supposed to do?

I should have ignored him and stated over and over, YOUR Words….I have nothing of yours!
Next time Lord. NEXT TIME> Help me remember and next time do as You have done.  Right now I feel beaten over with Your winnowing fork. Beaten, bruised and weak. :(

For R50 they will kill. Where was the Security? You were there. You are here. Sorry, I did not respond as a child in your kingdom. I did not respond in acknowledgement of Your presence behind me watching and authorizing the limits of the violence that could have erupted as the man tried to engage me in conversation and evil reasoning of his weak heart and corrupt mind. I showed him the receipt and that R20 was his change. He said he did not have R20 and changed his story mid-way to one that it completely baffles me why he would not have R20 from the change of a R50 note.


What convoluted violence and assault against Peace is this? Aha You say they take the Kingdom of God by force!

Mat 11:12  And from the days of John the Baptist until NOW the kingdom of Heaven is taken by violence, and the violent take it by force.

My ‘friend in the world’…she came in, and her eyes were looking for signs and impressions. I was inwardly calling to You Lord to help me and You did. Thank You. You showed me the same old stories the ‘friend in the world “ was repeating and was spewing out. I gave nothing except to say that as You have said, the world will be in torment. She denied that it was everywhere and then she cottoned on when she had to tell me where it was in the world that Your Pr0fesy was  not taking place. She just stepped over that observation and all I could do was enter You into my dialogue. That is what took hold of her and softened her stance but kept me starving for return nourishment. You are my nourishment Lord. You are my Peace, my refuge and sweet assurance. I had NOTHING to say to her Lord. It was almost being rude in the way I have often taken up her cause and she feels better but I feel nothing. She says she doesn’t want games and she plays them Lord. Oh Lord. Peace Lord. Thank You for Your Peace. How did I do?


You tell me that ‘the friend in the world”….she saw Me in you. She saw your stillness and confirmed it was weakness to her mind. She saw your lack of connection and she felt ill at ease but for her own rationalization that you were perhaps not feeling well and she gave  consolation only to appease her own sense of insecurity. When you did not respond, she felt it and again returned to her conclusions. She brings bad news and you confirm My Word. She needs a carnally minded friend and she has one in her other friend well anchored in Babyon. This I have done!  Fear not. My Plans will not be Thwarted. She will lose her hold on you and you will be free. I am your Savior and I will do all I Please.

Quote "The Spirit within me will make them see what it wants them to see and think." Ref: Roy Martin Forum BT…the next thing I read as I turn to see what is happening in the Forum. She said fight and You say I know what the end result is of THAT fight. It is defeat against the Beast. Dear Lord thank You for Your Presence in my life.

You know how I travailed against her presence here and You held me up assuring me and showing me as I became blinded and led into her mind and thinking. Thank You Lord for helping me. I am so weak I know and I depend on You and thank You for Your support and Love for me.

I have to repent Lord. I have been pulled out and away from You. Help me to return to You. Humanity. You are leading me, dragging me and consoling my separation from humanity. Thank You Lord.


4.16.2010

Lord, you caused me to look up that the Kingdom of Heaven, until NOW suffers violence. You caused me to notice from the post made by Marques, that You are Greater in that Kingdom than the Kingdom. The King is greater than the Kingdom. The King is more worthy than the acquisitions, palaces, properties and fortitudes of the Kingdom. The King is the Royal Scepter of God the Father that YOU ARE Lord.

You are the King and woe to those who do war against Your Kingdom Lord.
You are the Son of God to whom all power is given. You are the Lord and Master of Your Kingdom and I dwell in Your Kingdom my Dear Lord. Thank you Lord. I need to come nearer to You so as to overcome those who war against You and who despise You. Lord You have overcome the world that is seated in deep avarice and hate towards you as courting every evil thing that conspires to thwart You or mislead or devour Your children. You have the Angel Army of Messengers to do war against the enemies of Your Crown and Sovereign Father God.

Honor and praise to You Lord and Your Father the All Mighty Loving God.

I read it today. George posted it in CLV translation that said we are to separate from knowing the flesh and this spoke to me of those of whom I know according to flesh, tradition and seductions of carnal delusions that they are friends. You are the only and best Friend any mortal can ever hope to have. You Lord.


Mortality is pitted with flaws, corruptions and places of dark death in fleshy pursuits of worldly status and happiness. I saw this with my other worldly friend You are working in.  She ONLY wants to be happy, she says.  You have not yet established in her the understanding of You that her pain in the deep seated rejection she sees around her that is brought on by the envy that she is too young, too beautiful and too successful to be given any comfort of approval or agreement with her blessings, You have established for her to experience.  You are at Work inside her and the acid of her experiences with the pains of others, is to show her that You are the Master and Author and owner of her life, not her as she assumes is her prerogative brought on by her choices without Your Hand made visible that is directing her steps. She sees herself and chasing her tail, she reminds me of me before you yanked me up off my feet and began to put me on the wheel of Your Judgment. Oh Lord. I have been blind and I know that the spiritually blind ARE blind as Ray points out. You yanked me off my feet before I knew how to stand on them and with my first cry and inward breath You began my life.

You are God and You will have Mercy on everyone in the order You appoint and on the Day You say.
 
Arc

soberxp:
Mat 5:37  But let your communication be, Yea, yea; Nay, nay: for whatsoever is more than these cometh of evil. 
Mat 5:38  Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth: 
Mat 5:39  But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. 
Mat 5:40  And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also. 
Mat 5:41  And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain. 
Mat 5:42  Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away. 
Mat 5:43  Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. 
Mat 5:44  But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; 


to myself,i don't think i can do this.if i dont make it, someone else will

Deborah-Leigh:
Yes soberxp

1Pe 2:22  He who did no sin, nor was guile found in His mouth,
1Pe 2:23  who when He was reviled did not revile in return. When He suffered, He did not threaten, but gave Himself up to Him who judges righteously.

Revile :  insult, abuse, scorn, condemn, censure, despise, berate, disparage….

THAT is the lesson ~ giving onself up to HIM who judges righteously....We can't do anything righteous without Him.

Arc

Roy Martin:
Hi Arc,
 I haven't been posting much lately for reasons I'll explain in another thread in a few days.
 Your situation is different than mine, but the same story, the same battle that we try to fight by our self at times, in fact all too often, and we look at ourselves and wonder why we do what we do, and how we act, but then God slowly brings us into seeing the bigger picture of Him in us. Not only that, but of how He is in control of everything that happens in our life including everyone that crosses our path.
 I'm all too aware of how unpleasant lessons can be, but I'm so blessed to say, God has brought me through every one of them, and it never ends in this life of mine. They will continue as the Spirit in us makes us look at our self, and then turn us to Christ, getting better each time. Its quite a concept, don't you think?
 Its all just part of the Spiritual journey.
 Today is a new day. Tomorrow will be another new day, and today will be the past, but the Spiritual lessons will never end in this flesh.
 You got too comfortable, and God made you look at yourself just as He is doing in me right now, and all of us. Getting too comfortable is a good thing, it just doesn't feel good the consequences of it, but its all of and from God. Its all good.


Peace
Roy

Beloved:
We all face these things daily and in many different ways

(Luk 6:27)  But to you, who are hearing, am I saying: Love your enemies. Be doing ideally to those who are hating you."

(Luk 6:28)  Bless those who are cursing you. Pray concerning those who are traducing you.

(Luk 6:29)  To him who is beating you on the cheek, be tendering the other also. And you should not be preventing him who is taking away your cloak from taking your tunic also."

(Luk 6:30)  Now you, be giving to everyone who is requesting, and from him who is taking away what is yours be not demanding it."

(Luk 6:31)  And, according as you are wanting that men may be doing to you, you also be doing to them likewise."

(Luk 6:32)  And if you are loving those loving you, what thanks is it to you? For sinners also are loving those loving them."
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 ;D   OH MY.... HOW THESE WORD HURT    ;D

Yes you felt like he was cheating you and perhaps he was....

But .....We trust in the Father and do what is 'right'....

It would have been better to have given him the money.....and learned from it.

It is possible that there was a mistake,
or the maybe he  really needeed the money to feed his family or pay a bill ,
or his stealing is was a way for God to work on him, through guilt shame etc,

As a slave of Christ, the act of giving the money,
would have shown... that particular person....  that you are trusting
and that the God and Father that you believe in .....is loving, generous, non judging.

So we need to stop feeling deprived, all of the wealth in the World belongs to God our Father ...let it pass through your hands. These are only things of this world.

50R= 6.75 in US dollars ....consider this a gift to 'the poor in spirt'
                                    Or a render to ceaser what is ceaser's  

These situations just show us all how self centered we can all be, when we lose site of the truth.    

 8) In order to help others be honest...One Suggestion  8)  Use a calculator that prints out the transaction show it to him before you give change. Or use hand written duplicate receipt  that are dated and have the item information.

I really can honestly relate to your current sate because I am learning all sorts of interesting new things from these kinds of tribulations.


Beloved


 

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