I'm just tired. I'm not even that old at 52, but I'm tired. Tired of Satan trying to bring me down because of my sins. I've given up on trying, I don't know what to do. Help, I'm desperate and scared. So pathetic, I know.
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You aren't alone Porter. I am the same age and in a similar place.
Remember Satan will be cast down.
Revelation 12:10
10 Then I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, “Now salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren, who accused them before our God day and night, has been cast down.
Praying for you bro.
Psalm 107:4-9
4 They wandered in the wilderness in a desolate way;
They found no city to dwell in.
5 Hungry and thirsty,
Their soul fainted in them.
6 Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,
And He delivered them out of their distresses.
7 And He led them forth by the right way,
That they might go to a city for a dwelling place.
8 Oh, that men would give thanks to the Lord for His goodness,
And for His wonderful works to the children of men!
9 For He satisfies the longing soul,
And fills the hungry soul with goodness.