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GODSown1:
Hey!! lil brother,
wow! bo, man wen I read ur Thread wow! skyrockets! lol! ;D, str8 up!!, lil bo I dnt no, but 4 sum reason its been bort 2 my attention I should Share dis Xsperiance I went thru 3 or 4yrz ago, I feel Im 2 share it wit U, k lil bo??. I remember wen da mother of ma 3 Youngest Children Jus up n left me 1 day (Long Storiez ;D may share 1 day :) ), They were jus Gone!!, We had been 2gether 4 @least 15yrz or so wen dis happened, I still very much LOVED her, like krazy!!, But! da differnce dis time waz I new it waz Ova & I Accepted it ( az dis had happened heaps of times, Ova da yrz! lol! :) I would chase her & stuff lol! ;D bla bla bla, U know hw it is?? ;) ;D). But! n e wayz, She went back 2 our hometown with our 3 children & dey lived wit her dad, den she ended up in anuda relationship wit sum dude. Well d@ was Sign sayn 2 me it waz ova 4sure! dis time, So I moved on, (But! I new in ma Heart Id alwayz Love her no matter wot). Well 6months l8r & still I aint been with n e 1, Well! az in a Woman of coZ! lol! :) Well 2 me d@s Amazing!! ;D lol!, for sum reason, woman wer da Last fing on ma Mind :), I still had her on my Heart, Bigtime!. I started seeing fingz in differnt wayz, I started finkn How! sad! I had Treated! her (thanks 2 my last relationship I had been in b4 her, is wot I blame n e wayz :) ), I really! did Feel! so Bad! 4 her, dis is wen I Really FELT I DIDNT deserve her n e way. But!! man!! she stil so ment everyfing 2 me, Everyfing!!, But! still I new I had 2 move on. This is wher GOD cum in2 ma Life, Well Opened my Eyes & Ears 2 Whom! HE was first of All & den wot HIS Planz 4 me were. Like I was saying 6months l8r, Well, I Graduated frm dis course I attended "Sport & Fitness" course & it jus happened d@ my "X"s mother was Graduating frm a "Social Services" type course, well d@ evening I got a tx frm da "X", askn wot I was up 2? coz of me jus Graduating of coZ! :) , I waz shocked she txd me, coz it was our first contact in @least 5 months lol! :D, I jus replied "um!.. nufing ae " :) (Ive jus got 2 say @ dis stage of my Life I had got ova her & da fact she was in anuda Relationship, Honest!! ;D, but I still had d@ Love 4 her & of coz our children). Well n e way, she kept txn me tryn 2 get me 2 go out on da town. I stil didnt know she waz in town until she couldnt resist but! tel me she was in town. wow! hmm.. I thort Deep! about fingz & jus thort No! 'I can Jus c us talkn & her m8s wil cum along & ruin everyfing & cum say "Com on Gurlfriend! its time 2 go" ;D , Den id b bak 2 wher I waz 5 mnths ago >:( :) , so I thort Id say NO!! im gunna stay home 2night! Thank U lol! :) az I did. BUT! strangely she kept txn me trying 2 get me 2go out, Az I really! didnt feel like celebrating! even worse knowing she waz out sumwher. So I asked her str8! out!, do U want 2 c me??, & she replied Yes!.. Wow!! Bang! I was their :) jus like d@ ;D, But!! cautiously mind U :D . So n e way I drove up dis 1way street wher dis Club was & der she was :), she saw me, cam running :) haha! ( or did I jus make d@ bit up? lol!) & got in2 my car I parked up. Well @ dis point I felt like a teenager again :) I asked "How were da kids?", "How she was?, bla bla bla!.. den it Happened, knock knock on her window, ;D it was her friendz >:( ;D, "cum on Gurfriend!" ;D ;), BUT!!! she turned 2 dem & sed "uZ! go in, & ill b in soon". I was like woow!! lol! she den asked if I could take her 2 her brothers 2 pick sumfing up, which in da end was our "LOVE!" 4 each other We had left behind ;D From d@ night on We have rekindled da MAGIC! az Diana says sumwher lol!. This waz in Febuary 2005 I believe! :).Well! WE! were married! Jan 30th this Year, So Unbelievable!! but! Believable!! wen U get 2 know GOD, We still hav our Trails & Tribz But! thru da Peace!, Grace!, Mercy! & LOVE! of GOD is jus Underniable!! ,Well I believe Ive neva Loved her so much az I DO Now!!, its Krazy! but ae BLESSN!, I jus Pray! AlwayZ!!
The FATHERS Will be done in CHRIST JESUS! Amen!.. um!.. Wel lil bo I thort id Share d@ wit U,& Hope U understand it :), neva know it might Help sum1 else d@ may read it (or more Who can read it ;D ), I Pray! it Helps U in sumway lil Bro!, b strong! Peace b 2 U & urZ!, "U! jus Never! Know! brother!", its All to the Glory of..
much! muchLOVE!! Pera
ps. Im very sorry! 2 all who Really cant! understand a Word im sayn :) But! d@ is how I type sorry! ;D , BlesSnz! 2 uZ! ALL!! n e wayZ!... :D
Bradigans:
It seems as if God most of the time, if not all the time, draws HIS kids through afflictions. Lets have a look at what Paul has to say about afflictions because I believe he's an authority (2nd Corinthians 6:4-11). 2 Corinthians 4:17-18 - For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. And folks thought that physical circumcision was excruciating. Hebrews 12:6-7 For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?Physical circumcision has nothing on spiritual circumcision. Hebrews 12:5 - Have ye forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him. God is making and molding some of us into spiritual warriors (trojans and spartans). There's something coming, or it may already be here. 2 Timothy 2:3 - Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. Take up your cross (Matthew 10:38, Philippians 3:10).
IN HIS LOVE
lilitalienboi16:
--- Quote from: GODSown1 on October 21, 2007, 08:45:49 AM ---Hey!! lil brother,
wow! bo, man wen I read ur Thread wow! skyrockets! lol! ;D, str8 up!!, lil bo I dnt no but 4 sum reason its been bort 2 my attention I should Share dis Xsperiance I went thru 3 or 4yrz ago I feel Im 2 share it wit U, k lil bo??. I remember wen da mother of ma 3 Youngest Children Jus up n left me 1 day (Long Storiez ;D may share 1 day :) ), She waz Gone!, We had been 2gether 4 @least 15yrz or so wen it happened, I still very much LOVED her like krazy!!, But! da differnce waz I new it waz Ova & Accepted it ( az dis had happened ova & ova, Ova da yrz! lol! :) I would chase her & stuff lol! ;D bla bla bla, U know hw it is?? ;) ;D), But! n e wayz she went back 2 our hometown with our 3 children & lived wit her dad, den ended up in anuda relationship wit sum dude, d@ showed me it waz ova 4sure!, so I moved on, (But! I new in ma Heart Id alwayz Love her no matter wot), 6months l8r & still I aint been with n e 1, Well! az in a Woman of coZ! lol! :) Well 2 me d@s Amazing!! ;D lol!, for sum reason, woman wer da Last fing on ma Mind :), I still had her on my Heart, Bigtime!. I started seeing fingz in differnt wayz, I started finkn How! sad! I had Treated! her (thanks 2 my last relationship I had been in b4 her), I really! Felt! 4 her, BUT! I SO FELT I DIDNT deserve her. But!! man!! she ment everyfing 2 me, Everyfing!!, But! still I new I had 2 move on. This is wher GOD cum in2 ma Life, Well Opened my Eyes & Ears 2 Whom! HE was first of All & den wot HIS Planz 4 me r. Like I was saying 6months l8r,Well, I graduated frm a course I attended "Sport & Fitness" course & it jus happened d@ my Xs mother was graduating frm a "Social Services" type course, well d@ evening I got a tx frm da "X", askn wot I was up 2? coz of me jus graduating of coZ! :) , I waz shocked she txd me, coz it was our first contact in @least 5 months lol! :D, I jus replied um!.. "nufing ae ":) (Ive jus got 2 say @ dis stage of my Life I had got ova her & da fact she was in anuda Relationship, Honest!! ;D, but I still had d@ Love 4 her & of coz our children). Well she kept txn me tryn 2 get me 2 go out on da town. I stil didnt know she waz in town until she couldnt resist but! tel me she was in town. hmm.. I thort Deep! about fingz & jus thort No! 'I cn Jus c us talkn & her m8s wil cum along & ruin everyfing & cum say "Com on Gurlfriend! its time 2 go" ;D , Den id b bak 2 wher I waz 5 mnths ago >:( :) , so I thort Id say NO!! im gunna stay home 2night! Thank U lol! :). BUT! da strange fing waz she kept txn me trying 2 get me 2go out,Az I really! didnt feel like celebrating! even worse knowing she waz out sumwher. So I asked her str8! out!, do U want 2 c me??, she replied Yes!.. Wow!! Bang! I was their :) But!! cautiously mind U :D . So n e way I drove up dis 1way street wher dis Club was & der she was :), she saw me, cam running :) ha' & jumped in2 my car I parked up, I asked "how wer da kids"? how she was? bla bla bla!.. den it Happened, knock knock knock on her window, ;D it was her friendz >:( ;D, "cum on Gurfriend!" ;D ;) BUT!!! she turned 2 dem & sed "uZ! go in, & ill b in soon". I was like woow!! lol! ;D From d@ night on We have rekindled da MAGIC! az Diana says sumwher lol!. This waz in 2005 I believe! :).Well WE! were married! Jan 30th this Year Unbelievable!, We still hav our Trails & Tribz But! da Peace! Grace! Mercy! LOVE! of GOD is jus Underniable!! Well I believe Ive neva Loved her so much az I DO Now!!its Krazy! I jus Pray! AlwayZ!
The FATHERS Will be done in CHRIST JESUS! Amen!.. um!.. Wel lil bo I thort id Share d@ wit U, neva know it might Help sum1 else d@ may read it (or more can read it ;D , I Pray! it Helps U in sumway lil Bro!, b strong! Peace b 2 U & urZ!, "U! jus Never! Know! brother!", its All to the Glory of..
much! muchLOVE!! Pera
ps. Im very sorry! 2 all who Really cant! understand a Word im sayn :) But! d@ is how I type sorry! ;D , BlesSnz! 2 uZ! ALL!! n e wayZ!... :D
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Pera... thank you so much for this story, i have tears in my eyes. I feel like there is a hope, and that God knows my pain and that He won't leave me in this state forever. I know it feels like forever, everyday i hurt. It's been so long, i've met so many women, and jacqueline, is always there in my mind, on my heart.
I really thank you so much from the bottom of whatever i can, from my heart, from our Lord for your story, you have uplifted me, and given me hope, you have made me cry, and feel joy. I am so happy you and your wife were re-united, and i hope and pray that the Lord hears me and sees my pain, and that He to will heal my broken heart.
I know if i ever get her back, i will never ever treat her bad, i will never ever want any other women but her, i have seen the pain and suffering of the world, i have seen the pain that the lust of the flesh brings us, and all i want now is that peace and joy i had with the girl the Lord had brought into my life. The girl that the Lord knew would brings me closer to Him, and would show me what it is to truly love a wife, though i was never married at all. I would die for her, that is the love i feel towards this women, and i think its the same love Christ has for the church, though not perfect as the Lord's love, a form of it most certainly.
Again, i dont know what to say besides thank you, you gave me the perfect answer i was looking for, and the hope i needed.
Thank you pera from the bottom of my heart.
Your [little] brother in Christ with so much love,
Alex
lilitalienboi16:
--- Quote from: Bradigans on October 21, 2007, 11:19:28 AM ---It seems as if God most of the time, if not all the time, draws HIS kids through afflictions. Lets have a look at what Paul has to say about afflictions because I believe he's an authority (2nd Corinthians 6:4-11). 2 Corinthians 4:17-18 - For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. And folks thought that physical circumcision was excruciating. Hebrews 12:6-7 For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?Physical circumcision has nothing on spiritual circumcision. Hebrews 12:5 - Have ye forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him. God is making and molding some of us into spiritual warriors (trojans and spartans). There's something coming, or it may already be here. 2 Timothy 2:3 - Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. Take up your cross (Matthew 10:38, Philippians 3:10).
IN HIS LOVE
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Thanks bradigan, this has always been a very fiary trial for me, and it's lasted far to long for me, i am faint and weak, and sometimes i harden my heart in anger and suffering rather then open myself up to the Lord, but He is teaching me... though i am in pain always, to deny this, would be to lie to myself and not be true to who i am. Until jacqueline returns to me, i will always be hurting.
God bless,
Alex
Deborah-Leigh:
Hello Alex
I was widowed when I was only four years older than you. I too thought that my pain would endure forever. It felt that way then. Pain has a way of making us believe in its power to never go away or weaken or diffuse. Pain is nasty that way. It is a liar. Pain comes TO PASS and it always leaves us with a lesson and a gift. You will live.
I think too that I understand J. I feel more sorry for her than I do for you. It is her loss and this is not a put down of her in any way but is sympathy for her.
Day by day Alex. One day at a time through this was the way forward for me then. It might be the same way for you too.
Peace be to you
Arcturus :)
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